Stress and rant on my school...
I am stressed with my entire life right now. School is draining every fiber in my body. I am struggling to hold on and find meaning in what I am doing. I am attempting to learn but the structure of this school system stifles my learning. The program is designed for us to attend lectures to hear a wide perspective of ideas. Then we are to develop research papers in one area. I just have the most difficult time with focusing in the way they want me to. My brain is wired a bit different and I can't simply produce written work. I attempt to ask questions in class to help and now I have discovered some of my classmates are annoyed with this. One person said to me if you are trying to get people to believe in this, it isn't working. (This being, awareness about individuals with diverse learning needs and awareness about sustainability within all aspects of life.)
I don't really understand why this is happening. I shared that what I was trying to do is acquire the information I need to successfully complete my papers. Others are free to ask questions too. I do not attempt to dominate the conversation. I simply ask what I need to know or comment where I feel necessary. I think most people really don't understand what I am talking about. They think I am only referring to individuals with disabilities and the environment.
Disability awareness is crucial and I also want people to know we all have different ability levels. We are in a program about learning throughout the lifespan and hardly ever is it mentioned (only if I do) about how most learning programs are not meeting the needs of learners. Everyone is different. We all learn in different ways and according to our filters. We can not apply the same teaching methods to everyone. And with the environment, I want others to see how we are not being sustainable with consumption and the methods of destroying earth we use. We are damaging the earth for the sake of business and so many are hurt in the process. I want to learn to make a difference. I assumed that is why everyone in my program was here. I guess I realized once again I can not assume anything. I know that and yet I still need to be reminded.