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so it is 2 o'clock in the moring and i can't sleep.
First i slept to much in the past two days, i didn't get up today till 2 pm and i went to bed i think around 3 or 4 not too sure.
Second i am stressing about finals tomorrow and my mom's surgry. not sleep there. She is getting here knees repleced on tuesda morning so yea......
Third i am thinking about hings i shouldn't be thinking about. And i am thinking way to much about them.
you know what i want someone to hold me again, i miss that sooo much, nothing compares to that feeling you get when someone else raps in in their arms and makes sure you know it is going to be all right. I like sharing my bed i like dealing with someone rolling over in the middle of the night. It makes me know that i am not alone. I know i have friends but some times i just feel alone, that the little things in my life don't matter. I want some one to tell the little things to and i want some one who knows i am weird and thinks that my little things are cute. I want to be told i am beautiful and belive it. I want to know that when i look into someones eyes that they mean everything they say to me. I want to be seen for what is inside of me and i want to know that what someone sees in my eyes is worht seeing. I want someone to live for today with me i want someone to live for right now with me. I want something i can't have and i want something that i have never had. I want a lasting relationship where i can say later that i knew they were the one for me from the beginning. I want what my best freidn has i want what so many people have. I want someone to apprciate my crazy taste and someone to watch movies with. I want someone who laughs when i eat peachs straight from the can and then buys me them when i am feeling down. I want someone who knows that i love to go and do and see and hear and experience life first hand. I want someone who is sopntaniuse and travels the world with me. I want someone unafriad of letting me in and unafraid of being with me. I want someone who can shout that they love me from the mountains tops and then wisper it to me. I want someone who can love me like i deserved to be loved and i want someone who can love me with all of their person and still want to wrestle with me over the remote. I want a sense of playfulness thatt come with tenderness. I want to world to see me with someone and know it is going to work. I want soemone who loves how messy my hair is on the morning and doesn't think that my bad habits are gross. I want someone who respects my space but at the same time wants to see me all the time. I want someone who thinks that michelle and i are the craziest most entratining duo around. I want someone unafraid of my and my weird antics. I want someone who will drink with me and carry me home when i get to drunk. I want someone who needs me and wants me. I want someone to live for and i in turn live of them. I want to find my perfect peice to offset me. I want the man i was created for me. I want that person who God created when he relized what he had created in me. I want someone who will calm me and someone who will encourage the crazy side. I want someone who will put up with my famliy and love my mother like i do. I want someone who can see the beauty in the simplest things and who can try new things. I want someone to make me a mixed tape when the have to leave and someone to write little love notes to me. I want somone who is a hopeless romantic and that will sweep me off my feet. I want that person that i can't wait to see when i get up in the morning and i want that person who hates to see me go at night. I want someone who is there and right for me. I want everything
wow that was a lot more then i thought i would write but yea so..................merp................and goodnight
First i slept to much in the past two days, i didn't get up today till 2 pm and i went to bed i think around 3 or 4 not too sure.
Second i am stressing about finals tomorrow and my mom's surgry. not sleep there. She is getting here knees repleced on tuesda morning so yea......
Third i am thinking about hings i shouldn't be thinking about. And i am thinking way to much about them.
you know what i want someone to hold me again, i miss that sooo much, nothing compares to that feeling you get when someone else raps in in their arms and makes sure you know it is going to be all right. I like sharing my bed i like dealing with someone rolling over in the middle of the night. It makes me know that i am not alone. I know i have friends but some times i just feel alone, that the little things in my life don't matter. I want some one to tell the little things to and i want some one who knows i am weird and thinks that my little things are cute. I want to be told i am beautiful and belive it. I want to know that when i look into someones eyes that they mean everything they say to me. I want to be seen for what is inside of me and i want to know that what someone sees in my eyes is worht seeing. I want someone to live for today with me i want someone to live for right now with me. I want something i can't have and i want something that i have never had. I want a lasting relationship where i can say later that i knew they were the one for me from the beginning. I want what my best freidn has i want what so many people have. I want someone to apprciate my crazy taste and someone to watch movies with. I want someone who laughs when i eat peachs straight from the can and then buys me them when i am feeling down. I want someone who knows that i love to go and do and see and hear and experience life first hand. I want someone who is sopntaniuse and travels the world with me. I want someone unafriad of letting me in and unafraid of being with me. I want someone who can shout that they love me from the mountains tops and then wisper it to me. I want someone who can love me like i deserved to be loved and i want someone who can love me with all of their person and still want to wrestle with me over the remote. I want a sense of playfulness thatt come with tenderness. I want to world to see me with someone and know it is going to work. I want soemone who loves how messy my hair is on the morning and doesn't think that my bad habits are gross. I want someone who respects my space but at the same time wants to see me all the time. I want someone who thinks that michelle and i are the craziest most entratining duo around. I want someone unafraid of my and my weird antics. I want someone who will drink with me and carry me home when i get to drunk. I want someone who needs me and wants me. I want someone to live for and i in turn live of them. I want to find my perfect peice to offset me. I want the man i was created for me. I want that person who God created when he relized what he had created in me. I want someone who will calm me and someone who will encourage the crazy side. I want someone who will put up with my famliy and love my mother like i do. I want someone who can see the beauty in the simplest things and who can try new things. I want someone to make me a mixed tape when the have to leave and someone to write little love notes to me. I want somone who is a hopeless romantic and that will sweep me off my feet. I want that person that i can't wait to see when i get up in the morning and i want that person who hates to see me go at night. I want someone who is there and right for me. I want everything
wow that was a lot more then i thought i would write but yea so..................merp................and goodnight