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DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE LYRICS
"A Lack Of Color"
And when i see you
I really see you upside down
But my brain knows better
It picks you up and turns you around
Turns you around, turns you around
If you feel discouraged
That there's a lack of color here
Please don't worry lover
It's really bursting at the seems
Absorbing everything
The spectrum's a to z
This is fact not fiction
For the first time in years
And all the girls in every girlie magazine
Can't make me feel any less alone
I'm reaching for the phone
To call at 7:03 and on your machine I slur a plea for you to come home
But i know it's too late
I should have given you a reason to stay
Given you a reason to stay [x3]
This is fact not fiction
For the first time in years
so i tyink it might all be over. The last year and a half of my life has come to a suddencrashing halt. I have thought ab out it once and a while but never did i think it would really happen. It just happened and already i miss him more then anything. I don't know how i can do this. I didn't do it he did but i still feel that there must of been something for me to do or say to change his mind to make everything alright. Was this really how it was supposed to end? I want him to know i love him, did i tell him that? I want to know that hemight come back. I want him to come back. I wish he knew that. I wish someone would show him this.The pain in the pit of my stoumch wants me to wish him ill but my heart in a thousand peices won't let me. I thought i had been hurt before but my pain won't stop i don't know what to do with myself. I want all my skin to pell off you i can have a new tougher skin. I wish i had that already i don't like the feel of arrows in my skin. I want my doorbell to ring right now and have him standing at the door with tears in his eyes saying that we should be togehter. But i don't think he feels this way, i really think that he doesn't not see us together. What can i do to change this what can i do to wake up next to him and this all be some horrible dream. How can i function in a world that reminds me of him. Everything movies resturents music clothing. It feels like i will never heal it feels like i will always be this gaint walking wound. Agian i want him to come back adn tell me that it was all a mistake but will that be settling. MAybe my mom was right i was maybe trying to change in isnted of just showing him the door adn letting him choose change or not. MAybe he did choose adn he choose not to. It is hard to let go of an entire web of people. In a relationship you get to know friends and relatives that you come to regared very dearly and suddenly they are gone because the realtionship ended. I will miss his sister his brother his mother his friends. My ideantiyy of what i was doing now has been riped away. I don't know waht i am going to do for the rest of summer or the rest of my life. Theses situations lead to self doubtr and here i am falling right inot the trap. I know i am a strong person but if one person can get the blahs with me then others can. Am i a boring person? I am a bad conversationalist? Am i a bad person? I know that there are other fish in the sea but i though i had gotten teh prize. That rare fish that ends a fishing career i wanted to be with him, i wanted to live with him, to build something more with him. Maybe his life is moving to slow for what i want maybe i am moving to fast for what i want. I know people will tell me the pain will go away but right now it doesn't feel like it will. The throbing of my cheast tne lump in the back of my throat just grows with every painful minute. He loved me back, that was a first i don't want to lose that. Love is one of the most wonderful things in teh world and i have now lost that. I wish i would of hunged him back when he left or given him one last kiss to have that feeling one last time. But then if i did i would want anotuher monemt till the end of my life. MAybe someone else will be able to fill this void but i doubt it. Wheather he comes back to me or not, i love him. Everything about him, every air out of place every wierd quirk every look. He was the only man to hold me like he ment it adn like he really loved me. I know that he loved me, it hurts to feel that sliping away. I don't watn to forget and move on. I want to stay at the point when we were both happy when we were excited to see each other wneh we were closer then i could imajen. I want everytyhing back i want his arms around me conforting me. Who will i call now when my mother pisses me off? He was my rock when i talked to him i felt better he made everything better. i want i need to feel better. I wish this was like a movie and at the end of the script he comes back with a baquet of roses saying that we made a mistake and then he would draw me into a kis that would last forever. I want to hug him, i wanted to confort him when he was upset but i could becasue he didn't confot me i cryed for and hour in the bathroom and then the entire ride home. I never knew i could cry so much. I don't want him in pain but if i am going to suffer then why shouldn't he? I want to call him right now and say forget it i am not letting you breakup with me, i am not letting the best thing in my life drive off. But how could i do that i didn't end this? He end this and i didn't see it coming, it hiot me like a ton of brick. ISnted of me standing tall againt them i crumbled like and old wall. WIll i be rebuilt again will i feel ok? I know i will pain can't last forever but it sure doesn't feel that way sometimes. My relationship crumbled in the mountains of arizona, in the beatiful country my heart fell to the floor and shattered. I want him to read this i want him to know everything i tryed to say in teh silence of the car. I wishi could take it all back i wish we could start again adn be happy again.
"A Lack Of Color"
And when i see you
I really see you upside down
But my brain knows better
It picks you up and turns you around
Turns you around, turns you around
If you feel discouraged
That there's a lack of color here
Please don't worry lover
It's really bursting at the seems
Absorbing everything
The spectrum's a to z
This is fact not fiction
For the first time in years
And all the girls in every girlie magazine
Can't make me feel any less alone
I'm reaching for the phone
To call at 7:03 and on your machine I slur a plea for you to come home
But i know it's too late
I should have given you a reason to stay
Given you a reason to stay [x3]
This is fact not fiction
For the first time in years
so i tyink it might all be over. The last year and a half of my life has come to a suddencrashing halt. I have thought ab out it once and a while but never did i think it would really happen. It just happened and already i miss him more then anything. I don't know how i can do this. I didn't do it he did but i still feel that there must of been something for me to do or say to change his mind to make everything alright. Was this really how it was supposed to end? I want him to know i love him, did i tell him that? I want to know that hemight come back. I want him to come back. I wish he knew that. I wish someone would show him this.The pain in the pit of my stoumch wants me to wish him ill but my heart in a thousand peices won't let me. I thought i had been hurt before but my pain won't stop i don't know what to do with myself. I want all my skin to pell off you i can have a new tougher skin. I wish i had that already i don't like the feel of arrows in my skin. I want my doorbell to ring right now and have him standing at the door with tears in his eyes saying that we should be togehter. But i don't think he feels this way, i really think that he doesn't not see us together. What can i do to change this what can i do to wake up next to him and this all be some horrible dream. How can i function in a world that reminds me of him. Everything movies resturents music clothing. It feels like i will never heal it feels like i will always be this gaint walking wound. Agian i want him to come back adn tell me that it was all a mistake but will that be settling. MAybe my mom was right i was maybe trying to change in isnted of just showing him the door adn letting him choose change or not. MAybe he did choose adn he choose not to. It is hard to let go of an entire web of people. In a relationship you get to know friends and relatives that you come to regared very dearly and suddenly they are gone because the realtionship ended. I will miss his sister his brother his mother his friends. My ideantiyy of what i was doing now has been riped away. I don't know waht i am going to do for the rest of summer or the rest of my life. Theses situations lead to self doubtr and here i am falling right inot the trap. I know i am a strong person but if one person can get the blahs with me then others can. Am i a boring person? I am a bad conversationalist? Am i a bad person? I know that there are other fish in the sea but i though i had gotten teh prize. That rare fish that ends a fishing career i wanted to be with him, i wanted to live with him, to build something more with him. Maybe his life is moving to slow for what i want maybe i am moving to fast for what i want. I know people will tell me the pain will go away but right now it doesn't feel like it will. The throbing of my cheast tne lump in the back of my throat just grows with every painful minute. He loved me back, that was a first i don't want to lose that. Love is one of the most wonderful things in teh world and i have now lost that. I wish i would of hunged him back when he left or given him one last kiss to have that feeling one last time. But then if i did i would want anotuher monemt till the end of my life. MAybe someone else will be able to fill this void but i doubt it. Wheather he comes back to me or not, i love him. Everything about him, every air out of place every wierd quirk every look. He was the only man to hold me like he ment it adn like he really loved me. I know that he loved me, it hurts to feel that sliping away. I don't watn to forget and move on. I want to stay at the point when we were both happy when we were excited to see each other wneh we were closer then i could imajen. I want everytyhing back i want his arms around me conforting me. Who will i call now when my mother pisses me off? He was my rock when i talked to him i felt better he made everything better. i want i need to feel better. I wish this was like a movie and at the end of the script he comes back with a baquet of roses saying that we made a mistake and then he would draw me into a kis that would last forever. I want to hug him, i wanted to confort him when he was upset but i could becasue he didn't confot me i cryed for and hour in the bathroom and then the entire ride home. I never knew i could cry so much. I don't want him in pain but if i am going to suffer then why shouldn't he? I want to call him right now and say forget it i am not letting you breakup with me, i am not letting the best thing in my life drive off. But how could i do that i didn't end this? He end this and i didn't see it coming, it hiot me like a ton of brick. ISnted of me standing tall againt them i crumbled like and old wall. WIll i be rebuilt again will i feel ok? I know i will pain can't last forever but it sure doesn't feel that way sometimes. My relationship crumbled in the mountains of arizona, in the beatiful country my heart fell to the floor and shattered. I want him to read this i want him to know everything i tryed to say in teh silence of the car. I wishi could take it all back i wish we could start again adn be happy again.