Too much for me.
Spring is officially, well, springing. Eh. This is my least favorite season for a number of reasons, ranging from the tangible (allergies) to the abstract (feeling unhinged, unlovable, unsuccessful, unwarranted).
Also, restless. A combination of the weathers and the clothes I ended up wearing today have me feeling like I'm a pair of cowboy boots away from moving to Montana and becoming a ranch hand. I wonder if there are any ranchers out there silly/wonderful enough to train from scratch a twenty-four-year-old Midwestern city girl who's never been around a horse in her life? I'm also fighting the urge to drop everything and move to Vegas. This has come over me pretty much without fail every spring since London. Reading about how American overpopulation and overconsumption of the Southwest is killing the Colorado River has somewhat tempered this desire this time around. But still, it remains. Or Alaska. I could go to Alaska.
Basically, I'm in a mood for a much bigger sky than the one I have over me right now. I'm in the mood for meaning and depth and options--all things I feel like I'm severely lacking in this life I currently lead.
Whatever. Fishcakes.
Also, restless. A combination of the weathers and the clothes I ended up wearing today have me feeling like I'm a pair of cowboy boots away from moving to Montana and becoming a ranch hand. I wonder if there are any ranchers out there silly/wonderful enough to train from scratch a twenty-four-year-old Midwestern city girl who's never been around a horse in her life? I'm also fighting the urge to drop everything and move to Vegas. This has come over me pretty much without fail every spring since London. Reading about how American overpopulation and overconsumption of the Southwest is killing the Colorado River has somewhat tempered this desire this time around. But still, it remains. Or Alaska. I could go to Alaska.
Basically, I'm in a mood for a much bigger sky than the one I have over me right now. I'm in the mood for meaning and depth and options--all things I feel like I'm severely lacking in this life I currently lead.
Whatever. Fishcakes.