Has it truly been so long?
Wow... I can't believe how long it's been since I posted last on here... Yeah, my mind is soo totally elsewhere right now and I really can't think right.... I dunno, I'm kind of sleepy and wanting to watch this yuri dvd I finally got back from a friend. I assume yuri, because the entire thing just happens to be about a world full of drop dead sexeh type women and it's anime, so one can only assume..... I suppose I should start talking on this more often... I actually have people who lovesh me enough to comment to what I say on here... I have a xanga, but the Alys isn't loved enough there to get comments. And I do love comments... they make me feel special in some odd little way...
I've been having nightmares about work. It's freaky kind of sort of just a little. I mean, the first one was about a week ago... It was all about the place getting robbed, then this dude from my art class comes in randomly and shoots the bad guys, thus saving the day. The next one was weird, I was muchly busy and like... this dude who was like... my aunt's ex husband came in and was trying to talk to me, but I was busy and he kept annoying my tables, so we got into a fist fight... And he was actually hitting me, which was the weirdest thing... Then I told the driver, Jay, that the dude was trying to rob the place and Jay beat him up... After that, there were a few random ones that I don't remember much about... then one where I just got tired of work and went home and the one last night was where there were a bunch of tables coming into the restaurant at once and I went to the computer to put an order in and started playing video games instead...
Well the one where I walked it... It wasn't me who walked out, but another waitress just got mad and walked out of Pizza hut Friday night... Then I wound up getting into a fight with someone the next night... And now Kurtis, the dude who "saved the day" in my first dream is thinking about getting a job working there... I dunno, I'm probably just piecing random things together.
I'm suppose to be getting therapy soon... it'll be nice to have someone to talk to... I'm still hoping on finding "that special guy". Hell, I'd satisfy for a not so special guy right now... I just want someone who'll be there and pet me... It's odd, I know, but it makes me happy to have someone to lean against who won't complain... I don't feel like I can really trust all these people who I've loved for so long... I'm starting to feel like I just want to change everything... start over new. I just wish I could find someone who would help me do that....
I've been having nightmares about work. It's freaky kind of sort of just a little. I mean, the first one was about a week ago... It was all about the place getting robbed, then this dude from my art class comes in randomly and shoots the bad guys, thus saving the day. The next one was weird, I was muchly busy and like... this dude who was like... my aunt's ex husband came in and was trying to talk to me, but I was busy and he kept annoying my tables, so we got into a fist fight... And he was actually hitting me, which was the weirdest thing... Then I told the driver, Jay, that the dude was trying to rob the place and Jay beat him up... After that, there were a few random ones that I don't remember much about... then one where I just got tired of work and went home and the one last night was where there were a bunch of tables coming into the restaurant at once and I went to the computer to put an order in and started playing video games instead...
Well the one where I walked it... It wasn't me who walked out, but another waitress just got mad and walked out of Pizza hut Friday night... Then I wound up getting into a fight with someone the next night... And now Kurtis, the dude who "saved the day" in my first dream is thinking about getting a job working there... I dunno, I'm probably just piecing random things together.
I'm suppose to be getting therapy soon... it'll be nice to have someone to talk to... I'm still hoping on finding "that special guy". Hell, I'd satisfy for a not so special guy right now... I just want someone who'll be there and pet me... It's odd, I know, but it makes me happy to have someone to lean against who won't complain... I don't feel like I can really trust all these people who I've loved for so long... I'm starting to feel like I just want to change everything... start over new. I just wish I could find someone who would help me do that....