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i can't sleep in more then three hour shifts. my fever dreams include cheese curls, roller skating, the girl that my RA seems to be dating, gourds, turnarounds in the KoP mall, among stranger things. i can't even will myself out of bed when i need to get something or do something. i haven't been to classes since tuesday, and i have a feeling that i'm not going to go til after break. i hope this doesn't wind up in me taking a vacation term. I NEED to get better. they turned on the heat in my building, which is silly, as i am obviously producing my own. i still alternately wake up either freezing to death or burning up. my lips are chapped, i can't blow my nose -- oh, did i mention that i got my period? 'cause i did. just to add to it all.
evan took me to the pharmacy today, so at least i finally have drugs. but i don't think they're going to do any good, at least not for a while. i'm afraid that i'm going to have to drop rocky. i'm afraid that i'm going to have to drop school. so many thoughts running through my brain, i can't process them all.
i'm so scared.
evan took me to the pharmacy today, so at least i finally have drugs. but i don't think they're going to do any good, at least not for a while. i'm afraid that i'm going to have to drop rocky. i'm afraid that i'm going to have to drop school. so many thoughts running through my brain, i can't process them all.
i'm so scared.