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I am sitting over at Kyle's right now, and he is in the living room watching a show that I hate. Me and him are kinda arguing. I didn't want to get into any arguments with him today, but sometimes he just makes it so damn difficult. He gets mad so easily, and then blames it on me. It is like, any time we fight, somehow he makes it seem like it is always my fault. How is that possible? I try so hard not to make him mad or upset, how can it be my fault all the time? Hope you all liked the pictures from the river. I love looking at them. I put them all up on my wall so I could look at them all the time. =) I don't think Kyle has mono because his neck isn't bothering him or anything. I am really hoping he doesn't though. It would suck so bad if he did. I thought it sucked not being able to see him much yesterday, do you guys know how long mono lasts? Wow, I would go crazy if I couldn't see him for that long. My mom is so difficult. I have no idea if I wrote about this but like she can never be pleased. She was upset when I was upset about never seeing Kevin, and now that I do have a boyfriend who will see me everyday, she is pissed about that, too. And, when I have plans she gets mad if I don't know what times I will leave and be home, how I am going to get there and back. So, I don't ask her until I know everything, then she gets mad that I didn't ask. What the fuck am I left to do? Augh, Kyle comes over here like he is ready to go, and I don't get off right that second and he gets mad. What do I do with him!? Man, it is like there is no way for me to win in this world! I lose with my mom and the one person I think that can make me feel like I can win, doesn't. He used to, but now he just makes me feel like I lose no matter what, too. The only time I ever feel like I win, he makes me feel like the only reason I am winning is because he is annoyed by me. What do I do!? PLEASE HELP ME! ='( It is like, I am walking this earth as an invisible person. I can't win. I know, I probably sound all Emo, huh? Whatever. It is ok for someone to be Emo every once and a while... Right? Hum, well I want to go rent 40 Days and 40 Nights and Finding Nemo. See how that goes with Kyle. Sit here in silence with him cause he is all pissed off, which makes me mad, because he has no reason to be mad. If he was at my house using the computer, whatever that is his deal. It isn't like we are doing anything anyways. He makes it seem like the worst thing in the world, but what else do we do besides be all over each other? Well, I guess I will go now.. And try to be happy. See ya!
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