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Well, I had a great day planned yesterday. Kyle would come over, we would go pick up Katie, come back to my house, finish watching Daredevil, go to his house, swim, come back here, me and Katie would get ready for the fair while he went home and did the same, go to the fair, and have Katie home by 10. Well, this is how it really went. He came over around 9, finished watching Daredevil, then we went and picked up Katie around 9:45, he wanted to get some donughts, I called Brooke to see if she wanted to go, her parents dropped her off, we went to Kyle's to swim, and Brooke and him wanted to go get food. So, they did and me and Katie went up into his room to wait. And, I knew where the key to his safe was, and I knew what was in his safe... His journal... Well.. I read it. Yea, I know that is really fucked up because that is his journal.. But, I also found out something that I NEEDED to know.. I could possibly have something wrong with me because of him. And, no he didn't sleep with that girl 2 times... He did it so many times, he lost count. He lied to me so much.. And, he made the lie worse and worse.. Why would he do that to me? Did I ever give him any reason to lie to me? He always said he wouldn't, and I believed him.. Guess it was too soon, once again, for me to trust a guy. So, I called him on his house phone, because his grandparents were there, and I wanted him to hurry up and come back. And, he could tell I was crying. He asked what was wrong I said nothing and he said I will be there soon, and I just hung up. I told Katie right as I read it, "I hate him! I really do! I trusted him and now I don't wanna look at him. I don't want him to touch me, kiss me, hug me, or talk to me. I really hate him." And, I cried so much. I may seem like I am overreacting, but this is something you CAN'T lie about in a relationship. So, when he got there he was being really sweet, he was rubbing my back, kissing my cheek, everything. And then, he looked in his closet.. Right where he keeps his safe. He knew I had read it, but that was no concern of mine at the time. He asked what we had done while he was gone and we said talked and watched TV. He said, "That is ALL you did?" I couldn't tell him at the time. Then, he had to go back to pick up his and Brooke's sandwhiches, and he wanted me to go with him so we could talk. Brooke asked if I wanted them to go, but I said no, because I needed to talk to him on my own. So, I wasn't sure how I was going to tell him, but I needed to do it. He said, "You wanna tell me what'sup?" And I said no and then he said, "What's wrong?" And, I told him he knew what was wrong. And he was like, "Well, not really. But, I am guessing it has to do with ***." And, I said yes. And he said, "You read my journal didn't you?" And I said yes and he didn't say anything and I was like, "Why did you lie to me?" And we went into the whole thing... Talked about it and all he ever said was I donno. OF COURSE HE DIDN'T!!! I never gave him a reason to lie!! So, we were sitting in his truck talking and I was crying so much, and then.. He started crying. I thought it was so cute. He showed me some emotion. He never does that.. I was so sad to see him cry, but so happy at the same time. He let me know how much he cares. Then, we went inside and ate... Then, I went out and was laying on the diving board, and Katie came out there, and he was coming out so I asked if she would let me and him talk. And, she said yes. Then, he got in the pool and came over under his diving board and told me the real story.. I told him I didn't wanna hear another lie, and if he was going to tell me anything, that he had to tell me the truth. So, he told me the story, and I am hoping it was nothing fake. And, Brooke and Katie were inside the whole time.. Probably listening, but whatever! Then, they came outside and were acting like spies, so funny! And, I gave him the ring he got me for my birthday back. I told him I couldn't accept it from him until he wanted to be real to me. Not lie to me, show me his emotions, everything. Until he was going to be the real Kyle. Not someome fake. Then, Brooke and Katie started pouring ICE COLD water on us, so Kyle was throwing it back at them, good times!! lol, then me and him went and kinda make up in the jaccuzi.. Then, we went inside and everything.. Went back to my house, and Brooke and Katie were watching SwimFan while I was writing in my journal and Kyle was under a blankey. Because, I was getting upset at him again. Then, me and Katie went to look for food, but I wasn't hungry, because I couldn't stop thinking bout what it said in his journal. So, I was like augh! I went into my sisters room and was talking to him again. And, he went home to get ready, and we were sitting in my room having fun like regular girls. Singing and everything else. Man oh man, it was fun. And, right as we were about to record ourselves.. Kyle came in behind me.. I was like GODDAMNIT! lol.. So, then we were hungry, but still not ready. We watched some parts of the video.. Like the Scary Movie scenes. One of the fucken funniest movies EVER! And, then we went down to his friends bonfire instead. And, that was pretty fun. Me and him went for a walk along the beach and it said, "Ale + Michelle" all over the place. So, he erased one of the biggest ones and wrote, "Kristi <3 Kyle." It was cute. =) Then, we went up one of the lifeguard towers and we were kissing and looking at the water, moon, stars and alllll the lights over by the pier. I think? It was pretty!!! So, then one of his friends... Matt, came running up to the tower, butt naked! lol.. It was so great! Then, Brooke and Kyle Day came over and they wanted to go swimming back at Kyle's house. So, we all went there and swam. Man it was so great! And OMG!! Those people just ripped off their clothes and were SKINNY DIPPING!! lol.. Great stuff to see! Then, we got out and their friend Alec went home and Me, Kyle, Matt, Brooke and Kyle Day walked down to the park. And, me and Kyle were swinging and laying in the tube thing... And, we started walking back around 11:40 and that is when Brooke had some fun of her own! =D WOOP WOOP! YEA BROOKE! lol.. Then, me and Kyle were going to drive down to the parking lot and then come back and get Brooke, but we saw her walking, so we figured we would just pick her up. She was prolly glad we came, as soon as we got back to my house! =D So, that was how it went. Probably not exactly like I planned, but oh well. It was most definetly an EMOTIONALY DRAINING day! Sad, happy, frustrated.. Man oh man. Kissing him on the beach was great though, that is one thing I have ALWAYS wanted to do! ;)