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subject_e0057 January 2 2009, 04:02:17 UTC
...Aurora, you know I can't do that.

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earth_uninstall January 2 2009, 04:06:47 UTC
No, I don't. What could possibly prevent you from moving in with me?

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subject_e0057 January 2 2009, 04:16:01 UTC
...Prior living arrangements. I'm grateful for your offer, but I do have my own house.

Besides, it's probably for the best if Praise and myself live by ourselves.

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earth_uninstall January 2 2009, 04:20:44 UTC
I can speak with housing if you have having trouble finding someone to sublet to. And I can handle myself around Praise.

What makes you think you should live alone?

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subject_e0057 January 2 2009, 04:27:56 UTC
It's not so much as I'm comfortable living by myself. I... worry around others. Besides.. I doubt Gundam would want me to be that close at this moment...

It's easier, I believe. And should my own house be lacking, I typically visit Drake in Section 4.

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earth_uninstall January 2 2009, 04:31:03 UTC
It wasn't you that hurt him. Gundam is intelligent enough to understand that.

You could have visited me, if you wanted. But that can be fixed if you just agree to move in.

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subject_e0057 January 2 2009, 04:38:56 UTC
...My presence is probably enough to stir memories and cause unease.

And is this agreed by all parties? If you remember, I don't want to prioritize you, or Drake, over the other.

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earth_uninstall January 2 2009, 04:46:07 UTC
Just because of your appearance? I don't think you're giving him enough credit.

Not yet, no. But I'm sure the other two will agree, and I knew you before Drake did so I should take priority.

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subject_e0057 January 2 2009, 04:52:01 UTC
...Perhaps it would be better to say that I'm not comfortable. I know Gundam is intelligent enough to understand...

Aurora, you're my friend- a comrade from before we came here. At least trust me when I tell you that. Just because I have someone else close to me as well doesn't mean your position will be usurped.

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earth_uninstall January 2 2009, 04:58:35 UTC
I don't understand how the issue would make you uncomfortable. You are the least removed from it.

Then why are you disagreeing with my proposal? Didn't you like staying with me the past few days?

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subject_e0057 January 2 2009, 05:03:23 UTC
...Between myself, Praise, and the evil twins... there's quite a few people identical to me that I'm supposed to be "not responsible" for. It leads to quite a few existential issues and topics between myself and Praise that I'm still uncomfortable about.

...This isn't a conversation for the journals.

I did enjoy it. Very much, and I thank you for the hospitality. I just don't wish for Drake to feel as though I were shoving him to the side. It's similar to how you don't want to feel shoved to the side if I were to live with you. You're very similar people in this regard.

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earth_uninstall January 2 2009, 05:20:34 UTC
Perhaps you can come over and we can further discuss this over dinner. Some of your things are still here.

I suppose, when you phrase it like that, it is easier to understand. Though it is silly of him, considering his position with you.

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subject_e0057 January 2 2009, 05:24:10 UTC
...Very well.

Some of us are insecure in our positioning. Being unable to know the thoughts of another and afraid of asking can cause misunderstandings. I doubt he would say anything if he felt slighted, as well, and so I'm cautious of it. With you, you tend to let us know immediately your opinions on things- which can make things easier, if a bit more blunt.

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earth_uninstall January 2 2009, 05:41:28 UTC
If you arrive later than 27 minutes from now the food will get cold, so please time accordingly.

Why would he not be blunt about how he was feeling? There is nothing to gain from staying silent if you wish for action to be taken. He was quite adamant in his feelings towards you when we had that.. discussion about your relationship with one another, so I expected he would use the same level of openness with you.

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subject_e0057 January 2 2009, 05:44:48 UTC
...I'll get dressed and head over, then.

Emotions are complicated in how they're felt differently by everyone. I'm sure we all rethink bringing things up if we're afraid of how the other would take it. No one wants to feel rejected, and so most people are afraid of putting themselves out and taking that risk.

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earth_uninstall January 2 2009, 05:59:05 UTC
How can you not be dressed this late in the day?

Wouldn't it be worse if someone pretended to be friends with you because they feared rejecting you than outright rejection? Perhaps the reason why emotions are so complicated is because people make them that way.

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