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well, i havent spoken to mike since he pissed me off, though he keeps trying to talk to me. whatever. i havent missed him!
things have been going well enough i suppose. went to haven last tuesday with kellie and this kid billy, he paid for everything for the two of us. i shouldve known he had an ulterior motive. im going this tuesday too i think, but without billy. we think he slipped something into our drinks, cuz the two of us were acting very strange for having only had 2 shots of rum, 1 smirnoff, 1 shot of tequilla, and a long island ice tea over the course of 3 hours. i was waaaaaay to trashed and fucked up. it wasnt right, especially considering how much ive been drinking.
anyway
it was fun none-the-less.
so im feeling crappy abuot my weight. i gained back the 10 pounds i lost so now im starting to get kind of weird. in fact i feel extremely bloated right now. and even though im about to go jump on a treadill until i burn at least 1000 calories, i just drank a glassful of water and epsom salt. yum. but i know ill feel better later and then ill be able to stop binging. i know theres something upsetting me, thats the only time im gaining weight instead of losing. i mean at least ive managed to quit smoking, but this is ridiculous. so hopefully ill get to the bottom of it soon. i think its just loneliess, im affection starved and desperately want someone to cuddle with and snuggle up to at night. ive met alot of guys recently, but of course nearly all of them are taken and the ones who arent are either gay or just way to young or im not at all attracted to, and lets face it, im not a shallow person, but physical attraction does eventually matter. and those of you whove known me long enough have seen the guys i go out with. they usually arent the hottest guys, but ive ben attracted to them anyway cuz of their personalities, which, when theyre emotionally attractive, makes them seem more physically attractive. but i couldnt judge whether or not to go on a date solely based on looks, im not drop dead gorgeous myself, and as ive said, im getting very chubby. beyond my usual pudginess!
enough rambling. i dont feel so swell. i need to drink some fresh water and go get to walking!
things have been going well enough i suppose. went to haven last tuesday with kellie and this kid billy, he paid for everything for the two of us. i shouldve known he had an ulterior motive. im going this tuesday too i think, but without billy. we think he slipped something into our drinks, cuz the two of us were acting very strange for having only had 2 shots of rum, 1 smirnoff, 1 shot of tequilla, and a long island ice tea over the course of 3 hours. i was waaaaaay to trashed and fucked up. it wasnt right, especially considering how much ive been drinking.
anyway
it was fun none-the-less.
so im feeling crappy abuot my weight. i gained back the 10 pounds i lost so now im starting to get kind of weird. in fact i feel extremely bloated right now. and even though im about to go jump on a treadill until i burn at least 1000 calories, i just drank a glassful of water and epsom salt. yum. but i know ill feel better later and then ill be able to stop binging. i know theres something upsetting me, thats the only time im gaining weight instead of losing. i mean at least ive managed to quit smoking, but this is ridiculous. so hopefully ill get to the bottom of it soon. i think its just loneliess, im affection starved and desperately want someone to cuddle with and snuggle up to at night. ive met alot of guys recently, but of course nearly all of them are taken and the ones who arent are either gay or just way to young or im not at all attracted to, and lets face it, im not a shallow person, but physical attraction does eventually matter. and those of you whove known me long enough have seen the guys i go out with. they usually arent the hottest guys, but ive ben attracted to them anyway cuz of their personalities, which, when theyre emotionally attractive, makes them seem more physically attractive. but i couldnt judge whether or not to go on a date solely based on looks, im not drop dead gorgeous myself, and as ive said, im getting very chubby. beyond my usual pudginess!
enough rambling. i dont feel so swell. i need to drink some fresh water and go get to walking!