yay!
i went to tewksbury mass last night. for anyone who doesnt know, its by lowell, an hour and 45 minutes away from springfield. but dont worry, even though i went there after work i slept over so i wouldnt fall asleep driving home!
eddy and i talked things over, its all cool, back to normal, and hanging out again like usual. i feel much relieved, cuz it really wasnt a good situation for either of us and i really dont want to date a raging alcoholic!
back to tewksbury-
i met a guy online named jared. he had a webcam, as does kellie who ive been hanging out with every day for the last two weeks aside from maybe 2, including last night, and jared had asked to see our webcam, not knowing who we were, except that kellie was a girl from around boston, and we saw his webcam and we started talking every night for a week. really sweet, charming, cute, smart, funny guy.
it was his b-day on wednesday, turned 26, hes an electrical engineer, his mom is a minister, he doesnt like drugs or smoking although he does have a liquor cabinet at his condo which he rents by himself, he keeps his home near spotless (its amazingt! especially for a guy), hes an inch or two taller than me if not a little more, the most beautiful sea green eyes with a hint of blue, wears contacts during the day, glasses at night, hes like a cuddly teddy bear and gives excellent hugs, his hair is light brown and so so soft and nice to run my fingers through, his dvd collection is excellent, including things like lord of the rings, harry potter (all), star wars, space balls, star treks, monty pythons, dukes of hazard, kevin smith movies, and animal house, and most importantly, he smells good! (as opposed to smelly dave as kristen so lovingly calls him)
what else can i tell you? he knows what he wants in life, and i found it very refreshing to meet a guy who has ambition and goals and didnt put me on a pedastal above him. he hugged me as soon as i walked in, and didnt try to grope me! i was stunned, but pleased, and when we went to bed he had told me he wouldnt bother me if i slept in the bed with him, and he didnt...but he did hold me almost the entire night, and it was wonderful to have someone doing that again. (the last time i shared a bed with a guy he made me stay away from him almost the whole night, and then the next time he wanted me to stay over he made me sleep on the couch next to the bed....how rude!)
i know i was taking a risk going to his house, but i gave kellie his last name (she kenw his first),address and phone number, just in case she didnt hear from me at all. andrew's mom made her call me...aparently barbera wouldnt go to bed until she knew i was okay, which of course i was. i used to always go out and meet guys that i met online on a regular basis, right up to my senior year of college. and i was always right on with my intuition. sometimes it felt so wrong that wouldnt end up going if i said id meet them at a club or bar, sometimes id be in my car on the way and i would start feeling uneasy, and when i got there i would talk to the guy for 5 mintues then leave because i felt so uncomfortable. then there were the couple times that i wasnt nervous at all, and when i got there the guy was wonderful, or at least had good intentions so i could stay then either meet again or never again, depending on how well we got along. and i definitely wasnt at all nervous about meeting jared, in fact teh whole day was dragging by because i was so excited! the whole drive i kept thinking to myself that i would start feeling like i was about to throw up from nervousness anytime, but it didnt happen! and i was right, he was very nice and definitely worth going all the way out there to see.
soo, it was good, im happy, and we'll see where this all goes. i would definitely love to at least date him if nothing more at this point in time, hes so far away that it might be hard to have an actual relationship, then again i had a long distance relationship for 7 months with a guy who lived in maryland, and that went really well aside from the fact that we only saw each other an average of 3 days a month....and he was ready to propose to me at one point (until he cheated on me in a moment of stupidity from drinking and smoking) and i broke up with him.
ill stop rambling now, im just so happy to have met such a wonderful guy, i just hope he feels the same way about me (and isnt just looking for sex which i doubt he is anyway)
yay!
eddy and i talked things over, its all cool, back to normal, and hanging out again like usual. i feel much relieved, cuz it really wasnt a good situation for either of us and i really dont want to date a raging alcoholic!
back to tewksbury-
i met a guy online named jared. he had a webcam, as does kellie who ive been hanging out with every day for the last two weeks aside from maybe 2, including last night, and jared had asked to see our webcam, not knowing who we were, except that kellie was a girl from around boston, and we saw his webcam and we started talking every night for a week. really sweet, charming, cute, smart, funny guy.
it was his b-day on wednesday, turned 26, hes an electrical engineer, his mom is a minister, he doesnt like drugs or smoking although he does have a liquor cabinet at his condo which he rents by himself, he keeps his home near spotless (its amazingt! especially for a guy), hes an inch or two taller than me if not a little more, the most beautiful sea green eyes with a hint of blue, wears contacts during the day, glasses at night, hes like a cuddly teddy bear and gives excellent hugs, his hair is light brown and so so soft and nice to run my fingers through, his dvd collection is excellent, including things like lord of the rings, harry potter (all), star wars, space balls, star treks, monty pythons, dukes of hazard, kevin smith movies, and animal house, and most importantly, he smells good! (as opposed to smelly dave as kristen so lovingly calls him)
what else can i tell you? he knows what he wants in life, and i found it very refreshing to meet a guy who has ambition and goals and didnt put me on a pedastal above him. he hugged me as soon as i walked in, and didnt try to grope me! i was stunned, but pleased, and when we went to bed he had told me he wouldnt bother me if i slept in the bed with him, and he didnt...but he did hold me almost the entire night, and it was wonderful to have someone doing that again. (the last time i shared a bed with a guy he made me stay away from him almost the whole night, and then the next time he wanted me to stay over he made me sleep on the couch next to the bed....how rude!)
i know i was taking a risk going to his house, but i gave kellie his last name (she kenw his first),address and phone number, just in case she didnt hear from me at all. andrew's mom made her call me...aparently barbera wouldnt go to bed until she knew i was okay, which of course i was. i used to always go out and meet guys that i met online on a regular basis, right up to my senior year of college. and i was always right on with my intuition. sometimes it felt so wrong that wouldnt end up going if i said id meet them at a club or bar, sometimes id be in my car on the way and i would start feeling uneasy, and when i got there i would talk to the guy for 5 mintues then leave because i felt so uncomfortable. then there were the couple times that i wasnt nervous at all, and when i got there the guy was wonderful, or at least had good intentions so i could stay then either meet again or never again, depending on how well we got along. and i definitely wasnt at all nervous about meeting jared, in fact teh whole day was dragging by because i was so excited! the whole drive i kept thinking to myself that i would start feeling like i was about to throw up from nervousness anytime, but it didnt happen! and i was right, he was very nice and definitely worth going all the way out there to see.
soo, it was good, im happy, and we'll see where this all goes. i would definitely love to at least date him if nothing more at this point in time, hes so far away that it might be hard to have an actual relationship, then again i had a long distance relationship for 7 months with a guy who lived in maryland, and that went really well aside from the fact that we only saw each other an average of 3 days a month....and he was ready to propose to me at one point (until he cheated on me in a moment of stupidity from drinking and smoking) and i broke up with him.
ill stop rambling now, im just so happy to have met such a wonderful guy, i just hope he feels the same way about me (and isnt just looking for sex which i doubt he is anyway)
yay!