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so i had a very odd day on saturday, my dose apparently went down then (guess i felt like crap on friday because of taking tylenol pm on thursday night). i felt fairly high from it, which was extremely weird because you'd think i'd be feeling depressed from the lack of drugs in my body. but i did feel high none-the-less though i felt achy and overall in a state of general rottenness. i cooked dinner for mike and i and barely ate because i felt so nauseated, and then i tried to go to sleep at about 1am but couldnt because my feet ached so much they wouldn't stop moving around and i felt like i had ants crawling up and down under the skin of my legs. i took a few tylenols and after about an hour managed to fall asleep for about 3 hours, waking up every 5 minutes, but still getting more sleep than i would've.
sunday morning was bad. felt like i'd been doing 15 bags of dope a day for like 2 weeks and suddenly hadn't done any for 5 hours. i thought i was gonna go nuts from the pain and anxiety and withdrawal symptoms but i managed. it peaked somewhere around 1:30 in the afternoon and got better from there.
so things are going fine. my counselor has nothing to worry about, i'm not gonna go out and pick up as i'm coming off the methadone if i didn't do it this weekend, it was the first time that i felt like last may all over again and i held out!
off to work now. yay.
sunday morning was bad. felt like i'd been doing 15 bags of dope a day for like 2 weeks and suddenly hadn't done any for 5 hours. i thought i was gonna go nuts from the pain and anxiety and withdrawal symptoms but i managed. it peaked somewhere around 1:30 in the afternoon and got better from there.
so things are going fine. my counselor has nothing to worry about, i'm not gonna go out and pick up as i'm coming off the methadone if i didn't do it this weekend, it was the first time that i felt like last may all over again and i held out!
off to work now. yay.