corona
i just re-read all my previous posts from years past. i am always depressed. this post will be no different. lol. it's free therapy.
i went to a jehovah's witness conference today. there is a difference between the flesh and spirit. having thoughts about the flesh i.e. sex, alcohol, beauty is of the devil. whereas, spiritual thoughts align you with God, and will only bring prosperity. i like this religion. very different from hare krishna with all the rules. less restictive but more judgemental but all people are judgemental.
music - florence and the machines, michael jackson, amy winehouse, old eddie v and bob dylan.
i am thirty-two. i started this when i was twenty-two. ten years!!
i am the same person i was before, there is nothing different. i only have more control over whether or not i want to be aware of my problems and do something about them or drink. i'm better at it. i get over the depression quicker. only lasts a couple of hours whereas before it could last a day. i do look for the positive. i just LOVE to vent, so healthy. thank you livejournal.
with reading the bible, my highs last longer. i think about the resurrection and paradise. when we die, we are dust. but with hope of the resurrection, it makes all the pain we feel in this life, not pointless. we will come back and be perfect humans and live a perfect life. see and hear all our relatives and have a happy exsistence forever. this is such a beautiful thought, how can i, a libra resist beauty.
so thankful to have met engelina and troy. supportive, and kind.
it's mother's day and i have spent the last two days with my mom. i understand her more and more. the incredible sacrifice of her personality but also the selfishness that comes with that. very exceptional and cool to be brought up by such an ambitious self-motivated and loving person. thank you, you shape me. it makes sense you are my mom. i am like you, i want to excel in work too. i follow your path, respect you as a role model. the best i've ever had. perfect mother figure. i got lucky in this world with you!
i went to a jehovah's witness conference today. there is a difference between the flesh and spirit. having thoughts about the flesh i.e. sex, alcohol, beauty is of the devil. whereas, spiritual thoughts align you with God, and will only bring prosperity. i like this religion. very different from hare krishna with all the rules. less restictive but more judgemental but all people are judgemental.
music - florence and the machines, michael jackson, amy winehouse, old eddie v and bob dylan.
i am thirty-two. i started this when i was twenty-two. ten years!!
i am the same person i was before, there is nothing different. i only have more control over whether or not i want to be aware of my problems and do something about them or drink. i'm better at it. i get over the depression quicker. only lasts a couple of hours whereas before it could last a day. i do look for the positive. i just LOVE to vent, so healthy. thank you livejournal.
with reading the bible, my highs last longer. i think about the resurrection and paradise. when we die, we are dust. but with hope of the resurrection, it makes all the pain we feel in this life, not pointless. we will come back and be perfect humans and live a perfect life. see and hear all our relatives and have a happy exsistence forever. this is such a beautiful thought, how can i, a libra resist beauty.
so thankful to have met engelina and troy. supportive, and kind.
it's mother's day and i have spent the last two days with my mom. i understand her more and more. the incredible sacrifice of her personality but also the selfishness that comes with that. very exceptional and cool to be brought up by such an ambitious self-motivated and loving person. thank you, you shape me. it makes sense you are my mom. i am like you, i want to excel in work too. i follow your path, respect you as a role model. the best i've ever had. perfect mother figure. i got lucky in this world with you!