Christmas day for a_darker_dream

[earth_defender]

She glanced over at her father and smiled softly at him, he nodded at her, letting her know it was alright. Moving from his side she pulled her mobile from her pocket, and knowing Henry would have his on him, she called him. Rose had promised she would do at least that

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The morning after

[earth_defender]

Rose felt warm, too worm, the heat from her room was almost too much. Slowly she pushed down her covers and nuzzled forward, loving the feel of the cool air on her skin.

She shivered as a hand brushed her hair from her face, unshaven cheek brushing her own.

Her mind wasn't really with her body, she yawned softly, shifting back a little, coming body to body with...Her eyes went wide and she laughed suddenly, turning and hiding her face in Jake's chest, trying to hide her laughing.

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I opened one eye at Rose's laughing, closing it with a loud groan, my head pounding. I snuggled a lttle, yawning, before frowning, realising there was more than Rose in bed.

I rubbed my eyes and opened them again, waiting for them to focus before I realised what...and why, and most importantly who. My whole body went red in a matter of seconds and I covered my eyes with my arm.

Great. Just great.

I felt the same old sickness from before creep upwards and I tried desperately to push it down.

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Jake groaned, looking down at Rose and raising an eyebrow as he saw her laughing. He looked a little confused at first, then looked over to see Henry and then Mickey and everything seemed to come flooding back to him.

Jake looked at Henry, "You ok mate?"

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[a_darker_dream]

I shook my head slowly; "No..." I whispered softly, feeling nausea creep up my throat and I got to a sitting position quickly, pulling the covers back, crawling over the others and running as much as I could towards the bathroom, kneeling infront of the toilet just in time.

After a while I got unsteadily to my feet, running my hand over my face and flushing the chain, going over towards the sink and turning the tap on, splashing my face with water and going back into the bedroom, grabbing my bag. I opened it and took out my toothbrush and toothpaste and going back into the bathroom.

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[earth_defender]

Rose was still curled up in Jake's arm's when Henry came through the first time, but when he went back to the bathroom they looked at one another. She felt worry creep into her, that he...

Pulling the sheet around herself, Rose stood and looked back at Jake, he shrugged and followed on behind her, going to the bathroom and standing with his arms around Rose, trying to cover part of himself up.

"Henry, about...last night, are you...do you...regret?"

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[a_darker_dream]

As I heard someone come into the bathroom I raised my eyes from where I was brushing my teeth and listened to her speak, my pounding head and general sleepiness bypassing the jealousy I may have felt that Jake had his arms around Rose.

I thought about her words for a few moments - did I regret what we'd done?

I shook my head; "No..." I whispered softly, realising that whilst I didn't regret it, I didn't ever think it would happen again. I wasn't sure if Edward would allow it anyway. I yawned and finished brushing my teeth, turning my head away.

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Rose watched him turn his head away and let out a soft sigh, shaking her head slowly and moving from the bathroom. He must, he couldn't even look at her. Rose grabbed some clothes and told Jake her and Mickey could stay in her room as long as they wanted to.

Sheet stil around her, clothes in her hands, she headed for her bedroom door.

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I heard her sigh and walk away, frowning deeply. She thought I...

I dropped the toothbrush in the sink, ignoring the ache and the nausea in my body and I practically ran out the bathroom, catching her before she went out the door.

"Rose?" I asked carefully, touching her shoulder, turning her to face me. "I don't regret it, I'm just not..." I swallowed hard; "feeling very well..." I tried to keep the nausea down.

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Rose searched his eyes and she bit down on her lip, glancing over at Jake where he laid with Mickey, her eyes going back to Henry. Slowly she looked down, her gaze lowering also, she couldn't look at him, she just couldn't.

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[a_darker_dream]

I frowned as she looked down and I reached out and touched her cheek ever so softly; "What's wrong..." I whispered, almost inaudibly. I wondered if I wanted to know the answer.

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[earth_defender]

Slowly a tear slid down her cheek, "I can't...I can't do this any more, all I seem to do is hurt you. You want more than I can ever give you."

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I pulled my hand away as if I'd been burnt, all at once the nausea threatening to come back up too quickly. I swallowed hard, nodding, unable to stop the tears in my eyes from falling.

I nodded again, moving away, grabbing my trousers and my shirt and putting them on with a total lack of co-ordination.

"I didn't say anything... I didn't want..." but the truth is I did, I wanted her, but I wouldn't never say that, would never force it, any of it. I would never force her

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Rose watched him again, the few fragments of her heart she had started to pull together shattered once more and she clung to the sheet that was wrapped around her like it was a life line.

"Y-you don't h-have to...I...I can see it," his eyes, Snake was right, it's always in the eyes. Legs like lead, she moved and sat on the bed, eyes not watching him any more, she couldn't watch him hurting because of her.

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"And what? You're pushing me away now? Because I..." I bit my lip hard. "Rose...please...please don't, because I can't... I can't do...this... I will do anything you want just please don't send me away. Don't push me away from you..." my body shook in silent sobs and I just wanted to hold her close, wanted to kiss each and every bit of pain and self doubt away from her.

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Rose pushed her lips together, fighting so hard to stop the tears that poured down her cheeks, "You weren't, I can't...this wasn't about...You lo...complications, feelings make it complicated. I don't, I can't...He..." Letting out a long breath she looks up at Henry, "What if he finds a way for me to go back?"

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[a_darker_dream]

"Then he does...then I wouldn't stop you, I wouldn't ever stop you. But what if he doesn't, Rose? What if he doesn't? You can't..." I took a deep breath and steeled myself; "You can't waste away the rest of your life on something that might not ever..."