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bah, i always start blogs, journals, etc., write about 10 entries and then stop all together.
and i just read a few old entries, lol at my "artistic writing" i should really stop trying so hard.
speaking of that, i recently read catcher in the rye for the first time (i know, im about 10 years late) and holden, the main character, goes around calling everyone phonies, yet he's a compulsive liar. and i started to think of how i always say people are fake or their actions/ style is forced. i always try to find someone that is real. and i feel like i've really started to establish that "realness" in myself. i hope i seem authentic to others?
so tonight i said bye to kris. he is the last friend to leave and it just blows. i hate being left, i hate knowing that someone is going to have all of this excitement and i will be back to my own routine. erin is at western, which rules because when i visit my sister at app., i will try to meet erin in asheville or so. and then speaking of asheville, zach (my 2 week friend/ mutual attraction?/ fellow leo/ sisters best friend) just moved up there and so i have him to visit soon as well! im glad almost everyone else is living in greensboro, i can knock out visiting 10 friends in one weekend. but what makes me the happiest is that ryan is still here, he is the only friend i have left from that great great THC group of friends.
oh and drew and i went to visit jason yesterday! we took a train (that hit a car!.. long story) to greensboro and then walked all the way to campus to see him. jason has the best roomates too, they made this excellent rice and bean dish with a really fun recipe (ex. "4 handfuls of rice") and they had mewithoutYou on repeat the whole day!! i liked chris the best, he had these really peaceful, blue eyes, and fun light red hair, and it was his room that mwY played from. i talked to him alot about aaron weiss and how incredible he is. i dont even think either of the two are spiritual, which rocks that they can still love that music. oh and not to mention there's a head shop within walking distance of their house, how convenient!
oh and we went to that house that day and i saw about half of the same people i'd randomly met last january (when i first visited jason) in this freezing cold house with beautiful music playing in every room! paige and i were so blown away that night, and i fell in love with every person there! but sadly enough, not one of them remembered me. i didnt really expect them too, i dont think any of them have much memory left.
i've written an awful lot, and i didnt even mention my great pop music adventure to wrightsville with stephanie! but that can wait maybe. i've also started a journal with my beautiful, kind friend, caroline. i love her because i can write down all of my convictions and doubts and worries, and she doesnt judge me one bit. its so hard to find a friend like that. we found we encompass the mwY line find a friend and stay close, tell them whatever youre most ashamed of.. it fits so well.
idk i think thats all im willing to write at 2am. i have to wake up at 8 tomorrow, and get school things taken care of. responsibility really blows.
and i just read a few old entries, lol at my "artistic writing" i should really stop trying so hard.
speaking of that, i recently read catcher in the rye for the first time (i know, im about 10 years late) and holden, the main character, goes around calling everyone phonies, yet he's a compulsive liar. and i started to think of how i always say people are fake or their actions/ style is forced. i always try to find someone that is real. and i feel like i've really started to establish that "realness" in myself. i hope i seem authentic to others?
so tonight i said bye to kris. he is the last friend to leave and it just blows. i hate being left, i hate knowing that someone is going to have all of this excitement and i will be back to my own routine. erin is at western, which rules because when i visit my sister at app., i will try to meet erin in asheville or so. and then speaking of asheville, zach (my 2 week friend/ mutual attraction?/ fellow leo/ sisters best friend) just moved up there and so i have him to visit soon as well! im glad almost everyone else is living in greensboro, i can knock out visiting 10 friends in one weekend. but what makes me the happiest is that ryan is still here, he is the only friend i have left from that great great THC group of friends.
oh and drew and i went to visit jason yesterday! we took a train (that hit a car!.. long story) to greensboro and then walked all the way to campus to see him. jason has the best roomates too, they made this excellent rice and bean dish with a really fun recipe (ex. "4 handfuls of rice") and they had mewithoutYou on repeat the whole day!! i liked chris the best, he had these really peaceful, blue eyes, and fun light red hair, and it was his room that mwY played from. i talked to him alot about aaron weiss and how incredible he is. i dont even think either of the two are spiritual, which rocks that they can still love that music. oh and not to mention there's a head shop within walking distance of their house, how convenient!
oh and we went to that house that day and i saw about half of the same people i'd randomly met last january (when i first visited jason) in this freezing cold house with beautiful music playing in every room! paige and i were so blown away that night, and i fell in love with every person there! but sadly enough, not one of them remembered me. i didnt really expect them too, i dont think any of them have much memory left.
i've written an awful lot, and i didnt even mention my great pop music adventure to wrightsville with stephanie! but that can wait maybe. i've also started a journal with my beautiful, kind friend, caroline. i love her because i can write down all of my convictions and doubts and worries, and she doesnt judge me one bit. its so hard to find a friend like that. we found we encompass the mwY line find a friend and stay close, tell them whatever youre most ashamed of.. it fits so well.
idk i think thats all im willing to write at 2am. i have to wake up at 8 tomorrow, and get school things taken care of. responsibility really blows.