for the sake of poetry
damn you.
i think about you
and i want you
i listen to your songs
and i miss you
i see your picture
and i love you
your not here
and i hate you
and i want you more
damn you.
you probly think i'm crazy. i probly scared you away ages ago. maybe i didnt. it's not an obsession because i don't feel it all the time. i can live without it and i will. maybe, if i wasn't so damned antisocial it wouldn't be so bad. i miss you cuse i truly enjoyed your company and i know i will again. this will be my last emo lonely entry for some time as i feel i am dweling too much on the subject. but it's kinda fun to complain about what i feel are my mis fortunes instead of focusing on the sweet and awesome things that have hapened as of late. i faced many fears: i went on a ride i have always been afraid of; it was intence and way fun, i went into a haunted house thing like at fairs, it was a little freaky, there was some screaming, but fun, and everyone laughts at me for it, and we laugh at grif, who jumped at his own reflection, twice. i went to the gym, yep, kinda fun, went again, will be going more. i walked up and introduced myself to new people, granted i couldn't remember their names, and i was drunk, but still not something i ever do. i've been doing my homework, which wasn't ever a fear but laziness, which i'm overcoming a bit too. ive been eating way too much pasta. i'm trying not to be so anal about the apartment, neat and cleanlyness and stuff. the other day i tried to tell noah how to do the dishes, he yelled at me, and i went upstairs and smoked a bowl and got over it. but i did have to rewash most of the dishes being that they had food encrusted on them. well i have some homework to do so i shall be off to return again with more good things about my life.
i think about you
and i want you
i listen to your songs
and i miss you
i see your picture
and i love you
your not here
and i hate you
and i want you more
damn you.
you probly think i'm crazy. i probly scared you away ages ago. maybe i didnt. it's not an obsession because i don't feel it all the time. i can live without it and i will. maybe, if i wasn't so damned antisocial it wouldn't be so bad. i miss you cuse i truly enjoyed your company and i know i will again. this will be my last emo lonely entry for some time as i feel i am dweling too much on the subject. but it's kinda fun to complain about what i feel are my mis fortunes instead of focusing on the sweet and awesome things that have hapened as of late. i faced many fears: i went on a ride i have always been afraid of; it was intence and way fun, i went into a haunted house thing like at fairs, it was a little freaky, there was some screaming, but fun, and everyone laughts at me for it, and we laugh at grif, who jumped at his own reflection, twice. i went to the gym, yep, kinda fun, went again, will be going more. i walked up and introduced myself to new people, granted i couldn't remember their names, and i was drunk, but still not something i ever do. i've been doing my homework, which wasn't ever a fear but laziness, which i'm overcoming a bit too. ive been eating way too much pasta. i'm trying not to be so anal about the apartment, neat and cleanlyness and stuff. the other day i tried to tell noah how to do the dishes, he yelled at me, and i went upstairs and smoked a bowl and got over it. but i did have to rewash most of the dishes being that they had food encrusted on them. well i have some homework to do so i shall be off to return again with more good things about my life.