I lead guys on terribly. I don't care if I don't like them at all, as long as they like me I'll talk to them. Most of the time I despise them.
I didn't even like my last (and only) boyfriend but just dated him at first to have one. Then I started to like him a lot. My friends pressured me for a couple months to break up with him and I finally did. It fucking killed me and I know it killed him. I wish I could for once pick myself over my friends and do what is right for me. Its been a really long time since we broke up but lately I can't help but miss him. He texted me and set it off a while ago.
I just want him back. Him and only him. I lost all of my friends that pressured me to break up with him and I realize they were just jealous. I hate them for it. but I hate myself more.
but then I found out he cheated on me. I really think it might be a lie. They all just want me to be miserable. and reading that makes it seem that I'm in denial about him cheating, but he was so commited to me, there is no way in hell I can see him doing that.
I didn't even like my last (and only) boyfriend but just dated him at first to have one. Then I started to like him a lot. My friends pressured me for a couple months to break up with him and I finally did. It fucking killed me and I know it killed him. I wish I could for once pick myself over my friends and do what is right for me. Its been a really long time since we broke up but lately I can't help but miss him. He texted me and set it off a while ago.
I just want him back. Him and only him. I lost all of my friends that pressured me to break up with him and I realize they were just jealous. I hate them for it. but I hate myself more.
but then I found out he cheated on me. I really think it might be a lie. They all just want me to be miserable.
and reading that makes it seem that I'm in denial about him cheating, but he was so commited to me, there is no way in hell I can see him doing that.
done. Thank you for listening :)
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