Toccata Electronica
i wouldn't call myself a changed person, but college has revealed things about me that i never realized. before leaving, i had doubts as to whether i could survive on my own, whether i could manage my life, whether i was up to the task. now i know without doubt. all those years of being at home, needing to ask permission for the simplest activity, sapped my self-confidence and self reliance. now, when i look at myself in the mirror, i ask myself who that person is who remembers every meeting, is aggressively assertive, has already visited the career center and made plans. a few days ago i realized that i had planned a multi-hour bus trip across new york and never even bothered to ask my parents' advice, or even considered the concept.
in some ways, i like my new adulthood, but i am afraid more than anything of losing my childishness, the sense of humor, the ability to laugh at anything, the occasional absolute disregard for practicality. i think that if it came down to either the ability to act like a child or an adult, i would choose to remain childish.
college is pretty cool. it would be cooler if i could figure out how to download music here and if there were more hip people. thea, you should make me a list of good albums, and i'll download them over break.
in some ways, i like my new adulthood, but i am afraid more than anything of losing my childishness, the sense of humor, the ability to laugh at anything, the occasional absolute disregard for practicality. i think that if it came down to either the ability to act like a child or an adult, i would choose to remain childish.
college is pretty cool. it would be cooler if i could figure out how to download music here and if there were more hip people. thea, you should make me a list of good albums, and i'll download them over break.