self disrespect
Pardon my bitching but:
I'm not sure what my problem is.
All of the sudden I'm struck with a what-the-fuck-am-I-doing-type feeling.
I'm so disappointed in myself.
I don't really want to be that type of woman.
Yet here I am, making a complete ass out of myself willing to sacrifice just about anything for "love".
Truth is, love wouldn't really ask me to make any sacrifices.
Gives me the willies and it makes me feel as if I've let down women everywhere.
Possible solutions:
Become a lesbian.
Become one of those people who don't neeeeeed a man (but not a lesbian).
Become a hermit. (I'm kinda leaning toward this one.)
Just keep going on the way I have been, being a complete schlemiel.
CONVENT.
Take my mind off it by going back to school, getting another degree. I'd be too busy to even care about anything anymore.
Sex-change operation.
I've got quite a few options. That's good.