Eddi.
I can honestly say i did not expect to find i had lost my father. Not at 22.
I am the result of overbearing hormones. In a way, we all are;
Children conceived of love are actually conceived of sex, although this is purely argumentative, like saying guns don't kill people.
My mother was in uni at the tlme. Seeing as at 49 she's still trying to prove society wrong, i doubt things were any different back then.
She never bothered telling him she was pregneant, and he graduated and left for home knowing nothing.
There's no point looking for tragedies where none are to be found. The only lasting effect this silly little ordeal had on my being is that i have, unintentionally, been born half-french.
This is, by my account of things, neither the man's fault nor anyone else's. We've never known eachother, nor will we ever - there's simply no reason to do so.
Living as i have, i thought myself immune to father issues - only to find i've been looking in the wrong direction all those years.
Can you lose something you never had? Is it any different if you simply never knew what you had 'till it was gone?
I wonder how my life would have tuned out, all bare and with no lies, hate or hindering burdens to shield me and my incompetence.
Home is where the heart is.
I am the result of overbearing hormones. In a way, we all are;
Children conceived of love are actually conceived of sex, although this is purely argumentative, like saying guns don't kill people.
My mother was in uni at the tlme. Seeing as at 49 she's still trying to prove society wrong, i doubt things were any different back then.
She never bothered telling him she was pregneant, and he graduated and left for home knowing nothing.
There's no point looking for tragedies where none are to be found. The only lasting effect this silly little ordeal had on my being is that i have, unintentionally, been born half-french.
This is, by my account of things, neither the man's fault nor anyone else's. We've never known eachother, nor will we ever - there's simply no reason to do so.
Living as i have, i thought myself immune to father issues - only to find i've been looking in the wrong direction all those years.
Can you lose something you never had? Is it any different if you simply never knew what you had 'till it was gone?
I wonder how my life would have tuned out, all bare and with no lies, hate or hindering burdens to shield me and my incompetence.
Home is where the heart is.