Word to God
God has finally given me a sign that he still loves me.
The last week has been really dark for me. It was really hard to come back to school after the break. I really missed my family & home and could not get excited about my classes (still can't, in fact). I kept equating this semester with next year, when all of my friends are moving into an apartment together and leaving me in the dorm. Then to make matters worse I discovered that the friend who was going to room w/ me next year had made other plans, so now I'm roommate-less for next year (anyone want to room with me?).
Sophie went to UT over the long weekend and offered to drive me there, and then my parents could come get me from Knoxville & I could spend the weekend at home. But then it became VERY obvious that she didn't want to wait here an extra 3 hours until I could get out of class, so I had to tell her that I wouldn't come. She said she was sorry and that she only offered to wait because I seemed so sad, but presenting the possibility of going home in front of me and then snatching it away only made me more sad.
My dad felt bad for me, so he came over here and spent Sunday night & Monday morning with me (he had to go to Virginia on business anyway). So after spending a magical two days with him, I sunk down again into a depression as soon as he left. I'm just so tired of being here and doing homework and dealing with all of this crap. I just wish I were home.
But now God has sent me a sign. Because the Australian Open started today. And I love tennis. There is nothing like spending a full two weeks watching tennis at every opportunity. This is exactly what I needed today. So thank you, God.
The last week has been really dark for me. It was really hard to come back to school after the break. I really missed my family & home and could not get excited about my classes (still can't, in fact). I kept equating this semester with next year, when all of my friends are moving into an apartment together and leaving me in the dorm. Then to make matters worse I discovered that the friend who was going to room w/ me next year had made other plans, so now I'm roommate-less for next year (anyone want to room with me?).
Sophie went to UT over the long weekend and offered to drive me there, and then my parents could come get me from Knoxville & I could spend the weekend at home. But then it became VERY obvious that she didn't want to wait here an extra 3 hours until I could get out of class, so I had to tell her that I wouldn't come. She said she was sorry and that she only offered to wait because I seemed so sad, but presenting the possibility of going home in front of me and then snatching it away only made me more sad.
My dad felt bad for me, so he came over here and spent Sunday night & Monday morning with me (he had to go to Virginia on business anyway). So after spending a magical two days with him, I sunk down again into a depression as soon as he left. I'm just so tired of being here and doing homework and dealing with all of this crap. I just wish I were home.
But now God has sent me a sign. Because the Australian Open started today. And I love tennis. There is nothing like spending a full two weeks watching tennis at every opportunity. This is exactly what I needed today. So thank you, God.