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Biked over to the Like house today. The hills on Oppossumtown Pike are real serious when you aren't in shape. My legs were pretty worn just by the time I got over there. But I was able to talk to Elliot and Mrs. Like for a few.
Yeah, I'm impatient, I get to realize this more and more everyday. I just want everything to be fixed "now", but I need to accept that eventually, it will be fixed, everything will be fine...eventually. I don't really deserve the easy solution anyway, I've spent 5 years not trying for anything, I shouldn't get everything I desire instantly. It's going to take some work and I need to man up and accept that.
But there was one pretty interesting thing Mrs. Like told me. Apparently there's a 6% unemployment rate in the area that I live. That's pretty exceptional. And that means that while getting jobs may be really tough everywhere else because of the high rates, it's not that crazy where I am. That's fairly relieving. She also gave me the number for some guy that might be able to get me a job. And told me that sticking to Frederick-specific websites (and not caring for the newspaper classifieds) is a better bet. Sound like good tips to me since I called about a job today and that position was filled already, despite still being in the newspaper.
But along with my last post I kinda need to decide what to do. Do I want to go back to school to get something going there first? Or should I go directly to a job? I was looking at the MCSE Boot camp things and they're...pretty nuts. 10-18 days where you stay in a hotel room and attend a class from 9-6, basically working job hours and learning. I'm not so sure that's my kind of education. So I might want to work on getting a job and then take some part-time courses for this stuff. I know I can take most of these classes at FCC, so if I got a job I could work 20-40 hours a week and then take a class 2-3 nights a week. That'd fill up plenty of life-time, and hopefully teach me a bit about patience while I'm at it.
Chris is moving back in town, apparently not until May? Which is a long ways off, but amazing news. Not only may I potentially get a male best friend, but I'll have someone local, as well as a couple to do stuff with. I hope one day to have a couple that's friends with me and whoever my wife is and we can all spend time together, enjoying life. I haven't talked to Chris much in the last few years, and we've certainly lived very different lives. I buckled under all the pressure I put on myself and he made it through, he graduated, got a wife and worked multiple jobs to stay afloat. There's still a lot I can learn from that man, and I hope that we can reacquire our past friendship.
I'm not giving up on the girl. All conventional wisdom points to this being a bad idea, but I always like to believe I'm different. And all conventional wisdom has gotten me in trouble. In fact, I'm pretty sure I can boil down every single fight I've had with her down to being effected by two things: 1) What other people say about how relationships work and 2) My impatience. Now while yeah, what people say about how relationships work does have some merit, it also isn't the end-all be-all. We're both different people than most, and I think that causes our relationship to be potentially different enough to not really follow conventional wisdom. And besides, there is still SOME conventional wisdom that's supporting us, I just need to rely on people who know more of the situation than my side of things(and only a few lines at that), which is just stupid on my part. Our fights also are almost always online too. And while that's our reality for quite some time, that shouldn't determine things...because the end result won't be an online relationship.
My assumption is that she isn't ready for a serious relationship and you know what? It's selfish to ask for more. I need to learn patience and there's no better way than from someone I truly care about. Hopefully it's not too late, I don't think it is, but I am utterly confused about how she works so I have no idea what she thinks of things. I wouldn't be surprised at all if this isn't resolved for another week or two, so I'm hoping a job comes around to help me bide my time because life is so boring when I'm trying to DO things with my life but things in my life don't move instantly XD Interview (I hope!) tomorrow though, so maybe that'll be something to do.
Yeah, I'm impatient, I get to realize this more and more everyday. I just want everything to be fixed "now", but I need to accept that eventually, it will be fixed, everything will be fine...eventually. I don't really deserve the easy solution anyway, I've spent 5 years not trying for anything, I shouldn't get everything I desire instantly. It's going to take some work and I need to man up and accept that.
But there was one pretty interesting thing Mrs. Like told me. Apparently there's a 6% unemployment rate in the area that I live. That's pretty exceptional. And that means that while getting jobs may be really tough everywhere else because of the high rates, it's not that crazy where I am. That's fairly relieving. She also gave me the number for some guy that might be able to get me a job. And told me that sticking to Frederick-specific websites (and not caring for the newspaper classifieds) is a better bet. Sound like good tips to me since I called about a job today and that position was filled already, despite still being in the newspaper.
But along with my last post I kinda need to decide what to do. Do I want to go back to school to get something going there first? Or should I go directly to a job? I was looking at the MCSE Boot camp things and they're...pretty nuts. 10-18 days where you stay in a hotel room and attend a class from 9-6, basically working job hours and learning. I'm not so sure that's my kind of education. So I might want to work on getting a job and then take some part-time courses for this stuff. I know I can take most of these classes at FCC, so if I got a job I could work 20-40 hours a week and then take a class 2-3 nights a week. That'd fill up plenty of life-time, and hopefully teach me a bit about patience while I'm at it.
Chris is moving back in town, apparently not until May? Which is a long ways off, but amazing news. Not only may I potentially get a male best friend, but I'll have someone local, as well as a couple to do stuff with. I hope one day to have a couple that's friends with me and whoever my wife is and we can all spend time together, enjoying life. I haven't talked to Chris much in the last few years, and we've certainly lived very different lives. I buckled under all the pressure I put on myself and he made it through, he graduated, got a wife and worked multiple jobs to stay afloat. There's still a lot I can learn from that man, and I hope that we can reacquire our past friendship.
I'm not giving up on the girl. All conventional wisdom points to this being a bad idea, but I always like to believe I'm different. And all conventional wisdom has gotten me in trouble. In fact, I'm pretty sure I can boil down every single fight I've had with her down to being effected by two things: 1) What other people say about how relationships work and 2) My impatience. Now while yeah, what people say about how relationships work does have some merit, it also isn't the end-all be-all. We're both different people than most, and I think that causes our relationship to be potentially different enough to not really follow conventional wisdom. And besides, there is still SOME conventional wisdom that's supporting us, I just need to rely on people who know more of the situation than my side of things(and only a few lines at that), which is just stupid on my part. Our fights also are almost always online too. And while that's our reality for quite some time, that shouldn't determine things...because the end result won't be an online relationship.
My assumption is that she isn't ready for a serious relationship and you know what? It's selfish to ask for more. I need to learn patience and there's no better way than from someone I truly care about. Hopefully it's not too late, I don't think it is, but I am utterly confused about how she works so I have no idea what she thinks of things. I wouldn't be surprised at all if this isn't resolved for another week or two, so I'm hoping a job comes around to help me bide my time because life is so boring when I'm trying to DO things with my life but things in my life don't move instantly XD Interview (I hope!) tomorrow though, so maybe that'll be something to do.