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Drama drama drama.
I don't care to get into the whole bit all over again, been over things too many times today already and already talked to people to get me through it and cool off.
Got some "bad news" last night though, her family planned birthday adventures for her today, so I wouldn't get to see her. This was told to me at 11pm last night, not exactly ideal time to accept and plan around things. I got a bit too emotional here, gave her more grief than she deserved, but she never hung up the phone, so that means she's either really, really polite (maybe!) or she cares about me more than I sometimes think. After keeping her up too late, we settled with no compromise, I wasn't going to see her at all today but I'd get her Thursday. I wasn't especially happy about this, but it was fair and no less than I could really ask for, so I accepted it and went to bed.
But this morning some drama happened with my family, I got emotional about that and my emotions were still running high from the night before and it all came together for a bad time, so I packed up my bags and got in my car and left, without my brother. I pretty much expected to get talked into going back by either my mother or my girl, and unfortunately my mother came first. I did want to see what my girl would say about things, because she's typically non-responsive but this was a situation where I needed someone to tell me things. But it was too early for her, so oh well. However, her birthday present was to be ready that morning (chocolate-dipped Strawberries from a local chocolate shop) and so I picked them up on my way out the door and headed "home", which conveniently goes by her place. So when she finally awoke I called her up and asked if she had time to spend with me, she did and we got to have a chat about things, got some food, watched a movie at home and had a good time. Just what I needed. I headed home, got some dinner on my own and stopped by the library since my grandma/brother went out of town to eat at a nice place for today. So here I am.
Now here's the new information for the day. Because of my actions my grandma got all prepped to drive my brother home tomorrow, and even after hearing that I'll be coming back she still may be planning to do this. What this means is that after I spend my day with my girl tomorrow...I can go home. I don't need to go back to my grandma's and drive my brother home Friday. This opens up the extremely unlikely 0.01% chance I can spend the night with my girl, but will essentially mean I get to drive home and sleep in my car at rest areas all thursday night until I get home, heh. I've done it before, and that was in my Lumina, so I have no real worries about doing it again. This will get me home Friday morning-ish. Or Friday afternoon if things go really well, but I really, REALLY doubt it, haha. I'm thinking about spending the night at a hotel, I have the money to do this, but we'll see, it's only worth it if I'm not spending the night alone. I could drive back to grandma's and sleep there, but it's 120 miles from Bristol to Hendersonville, both ways is 240 miles, going 40mpg it's 6 gallons, $2.50 a gallon is $15. So I only spend an extra $25 if I get a cheap hotel...maybe you can get cheaper, I don't know. Or more expensive...either way, I should be able to afford it and it IS safer/legal to do this since you're not supposed to actually sleep at rest areas. I'm pretty sure I know the deciding factor on this, we'll see how that goes when tomorrow night comes around. And of course at this point I really don't want to have to drive my brother home Friday. My grandma wants to go visit her sister in Hanover (45min from Frederick) anyway so it's not like she's really going out of her way.
I think that's all I have to say...no point asking more questions here as only one person I haven't already spoken to about it is even somewhat likely to respond. Oh well.
Need to go home and start living a real life. After a day of happiness, of course.
I don't care to get into the whole bit all over again, been over things too many times today already and already talked to people to get me through it and cool off.
Got some "bad news" last night though, her family planned birthday adventures for her today, so I wouldn't get to see her. This was told to me at 11pm last night, not exactly ideal time to accept and plan around things. I got a bit too emotional here, gave her more grief than she deserved, but she never hung up the phone, so that means she's either really, really polite (maybe!) or she cares about me more than I sometimes think. After keeping her up too late, we settled with no compromise, I wasn't going to see her at all today but I'd get her Thursday. I wasn't especially happy about this, but it was fair and no less than I could really ask for, so I accepted it and went to bed.
But this morning some drama happened with my family, I got emotional about that and my emotions were still running high from the night before and it all came together for a bad time, so I packed up my bags and got in my car and left, without my brother. I pretty much expected to get talked into going back by either my mother or my girl, and unfortunately my mother came first. I did want to see what my girl would say about things, because she's typically non-responsive but this was a situation where I needed someone to tell me things. But it was too early for her, so oh well. However, her birthday present was to be ready that morning (chocolate-dipped Strawberries from a local chocolate shop) and so I picked them up on my way out the door and headed "home", which conveniently goes by her place. So when she finally awoke I called her up and asked if she had time to spend with me, she did and we got to have a chat about things, got some food, watched a movie at home and had a good time. Just what I needed. I headed home, got some dinner on my own and stopped by the library since my grandma/brother went out of town to eat at a nice place for today. So here I am.
Now here's the new information for the day. Because of my actions my grandma got all prepped to drive my brother home tomorrow, and even after hearing that I'll be coming back she still may be planning to do this. What this means is that after I spend my day with my girl tomorrow...I can go home. I don't need to go back to my grandma's and drive my brother home Friday. This opens up the extremely unlikely 0.01% chance I can spend the night with my girl, but will essentially mean I get to drive home and sleep in my car at rest areas all thursday night until I get home, heh. I've done it before, and that was in my Lumina, so I have no real worries about doing it again. This will get me home Friday morning-ish. Or Friday afternoon if things go really well, but I really, REALLY doubt it, haha. I'm thinking about spending the night at a hotel, I have the money to do this, but we'll see, it's only worth it if I'm not spending the night alone. I could drive back to grandma's and sleep there, but it's 120 miles from Bristol to Hendersonville, both ways is 240 miles, going 40mpg it's 6 gallons, $2.50 a gallon is $15. So I only spend an extra $25 if I get a cheap hotel...maybe you can get cheaper, I don't know. Or more expensive...either way, I should be able to afford it and it IS safer/legal to do this since you're not supposed to actually sleep at rest areas. I'm pretty sure I know the deciding factor on this, we'll see how that goes when tomorrow night comes around. And of course at this point I really don't want to have to drive my brother home Friday. My grandma wants to go visit her sister in Hanover (45min from Frederick) anyway so it's not like she's really going out of her way.
I think that's all I have to say...no point asking more questions here as only one person I haven't already spoken to about it is even somewhat likely to respond. Oh well.
Need to go home and start living a real life. After a day of happiness, of course.