My thoughts and acknowledgements :D
Before I begin my updates I want to give full props to a few people.
Wandering: You rock :) The drums were great and you remembered and asked to see my ring. :)
Jeff: Thanks for caring
Da Hubby: You're very sweet :)
Ben ~ I need your help. Do you know offhand how I can change over to deserteagle? I think it's time I make that final leap. I don't want to pay, but I think I may need to.
Alias Writers: I'd worship your writing if I didn't know better!! Thank you for giving me an EXCELLENT show again!!!!!!!!!!
I had an emotional roller coaster weekend - but not, necessarily, in a bad way! Friday night I had a very laid back time with Valerie and Chris. I was so relieved that they wanted a laid back time and didn't feel bored! When they left I relaxed until Jason came home. We talked a long time once he got home and that was decisive and good.
Saturday ~ The afternoon was a bit rough emotionally, because I found out that my clothes from last summer are tight. The reality made me cry. I couldn't stop. Jason was great. I was battling throughts of annorexia. I have this stupid mentality that the only way to really lose weight is by not eating. I was starting to think that I would have to do that again. I knew it was dumb, but I was so discouraged because nothing else seems to be working. I was starting to fall into an ugly deep depression, but the COOL thing was that the Holy Spirit spoke to me through that and shook me out of it. He said, "be faithful with the little." Those simple words broke me out of my depression. I'm going to be faithful with my eating, walking, and doing the pilates video that I have. My mind is twisted and doesn't believe that the pilates will help, but I KNOW that if I am faithful with the little God will do the rest.
Saturday night ~ I had SO much fun! Lauren and I went shopping and it was Great. Lauren and I had some really great bonding moments. I enjoyed it a lot. There's nothing easier/better then someone who can answer your questions in a blink of an eye. "What do you think of this color". "I don't like it - it washes you out". EASY AS PIE!!!!!!!!!! I agree with my hubby - I'll only go shopping with females from now on. :) We went to her house to see her wedding stuff after we were done shopping. Everything is PEFECT! :)
Sunday: The 'healing journey' training was good. I'm nervous and excited for the next session. I really recommend it for anyone and everyone! I, also, enjoyed seeing most of you at the 11:30 service. That was neat.
Jason and I hung out all day on Sunday afternoon. It was great. We had some really nice quality time!
703 was EXCELLENT. I was refreshed by seeing/chattting with all of my beloved friends. The service was really great! I think it's really interesting that God has spoken the same thing to me through three SEPERATE sources. He's been making it clear how PIVITOL the Word of God is. It is our life. It is my truth that I need to combat the lies in my head or that surround me. The Holy Spirit is real and it's time I enter in again. The Lord has also been convicting me and pointing out that I need to start speaking in tongues again. I rarely do it. In Jeff's message that truth felt imprinted on my entire being. During worship I went back to do communion. I ended up sitting in the back and I just started to weep. Then, almost suddenly, I just started to war in tongues. It was a very very personal and freeing thing.
I felt akward going up for prayer, because I knew I was spirit filled - but I also knew I needed More. I went up and Sarah Ranvestal prayed for me. She asked me what I needed and I just told her, "I need more". Sarah didn't have to say much. She just touched my head and heart and began praying. I found myself being overwhelmed/consumed with the Spirit of God and I spoke in tongues. It was so freeing. I weeped and prayed. Then, suddenly, I heard the Lord tell me to be still and recieve. I was obedient, and then the Lord revealed to me that I have been afraid of the Holy Spirit. In the past I had flowed in the giftings and the power of the Holy Spirit - but I was also wounded and squashed by outside forces involving the Holy Spirit. I have been afraid to flow in prophecy and my giftings because I didn't know if it was safe. I know that sounds foolish, but it was a hidden secret I didn't even know I had. I wept and repented. When the prayer was done Sarah and I chatted about what happened and just relaxed in His Power. It was awesome.
Afterwards I went up to Anne to give her a big hug. While we were chatting I shared something with her that I'm a bit anxious about. You know what she did?! She grabbed my hand and said, "let's pray". We sat down and she prayed for me. That touched me in so many ways.
I went home to find Jason straightening up the house and then we watched Alias together. The eppy was PHENOMENAL. I rate it a 9! I was shocked, excited, thrilled, anxious, and thrilled all at once! I'm SO RELIEVED that it's returned in full swing. Unfortuntely, I only have 3 more eppy's until the finale.
Last, but not least, I want to say that I'm determining to find the good and grab a hold of it while I have it. There are so many things I want to take and have that are available in IL. I'm going to do just that.
Hugs and Blessings to all!
Jae
Wandering: You rock :) The drums were great and you remembered and asked to see my ring. :)
Jeff: Thanks for caring
Da Hubby: You're very sweet :)
Ben ~ I need your help. Do you know offhand how I can change over to deserteagle? I think it's time I make that final leap. I don't want to pay, but I think I may need to.
Alias Writers: I'd worship your writing if I didn't know better!! Thank you for giving me an EXCELLENT show again!!!!!!!!!!
I had an emotional roller coaster weekend - but not, necessarily, in a bad way! Friday night I had a very laid back time with Valerie and Chris. I was so relieved that they wanted a laid back time and didn't feel bored! When they left I relaxed until Jason came home. We talked a long time once he got home and that was decisive and good.
Saturday ~ The afternoon was a bit rough emotionally, because I found out that my clothes from last summer are tight. The reality made me cry. I couldn't stop. Jason was great. I was battling throughts of annorexia. I have this stupid mentality that the only way to really lose weight is by not eating. I was starting to think that I would have to do that again. I knew it was dumb, but I was so discouraged because nothing else seems to be working. I was starting to fall into an ugly deep depression, but the COOL thing was that the Holy Spirit spoke to me through that and shook me out of it. He said, "be faithful with the little." Those simple words broke me out of my depression. I'm going to be faithful with my eating, walking, and doing the pilates video that I have. My mind is twisted and doesn't believe that the pilates will help, but I KNOW that if I am faithful with the little God will do the rest.
Saturday night ~ I had SO much fun! Lauren and I went shopping and it was Great. Lauren and I had some really great bonding moments. I enjoyed it a lot. There's nothing easier/better then someone who can answer your questions in a blink of an eye. "What do you think of this color". "I don't like it - it washes you out". EASY AS PIE!!!!!!!!!! I agree with my hubby - I'll only go shopping with females from now on. :) We went to her house to see her wedding stuff after we were done shopping. Everything is PEFECT! :)
Sunday: The 'healing journey' training was good. I'm nervous and excited for the next session. I really recommend it for anyone and everyone! I, also, enjoyed seeing most of you at the 11:30 service. That was neat.
Jason and I hung out all day on Sunday afternoon. It was great. We had some really nice quality time!
703 was EXCELLENT. I was refreshed by seeing/chattting with all of my beloved friends. The service was really great! I think it's really interesting that God has spoken the same thing to me through three SEPERATE sources. He's been making it clear how PIVITOL the Word of God is. It is our life. It is my truth that I need to combat the lies in my head or that surround me. The Holy Spirit is real and it's time I enter in again. The Lord has also been convicting me and pointing out that I need to start speaking in tongues again. I rarely do it. In Jeff's message that truth felt imprinted on my entire being. During worship I went back to do communion. I ended up sitting in the back and I just started to weep. Then, almost suddenly, I just started to war in tongues. It was a very very personal and freeing thing.
I felt akward going up for prayer, because I knew I was spirit filled - but I also knew I needed More. I went up and Sarah Ranvestal prayed for me. She asked me what I needed and I just told her, "I need more". Sarah didn't have to say much. She just touched my head and heart and began praying. I found myself being overwhelmed/consumed with the Spirit of God and I spoke in tongues. It was so freeing. I weeped and prayed. Then, suddenly, I heard the Lord tell me to be still and recieve. I was obedient, and then the Lord revealed to me that I have been afraid of the Holy Spirit. In the past I had flowed in the giftings and the power of the Holy Spirit - but I was also wounded and squashed by outside forces involving the Holy Spirit. I have been afraid to flow in prophecy and my giftings because I didn't know if it was safe. I know that sounds foolish, but it was a hidden secret I didn't even know I had. I wept and repented. When the prayer was done Sarah and I chatted about what happened and just relaxed in His Power. It was awesome.
Afterwards I went up to Anne to give her a big hug. While we were chatting I shared something with her that I'm a bit anxious about. You know what she did?! She grabbed my hand and said, "let's pray". We sat down and she prayed for me. That touched me in so many ways.
I went home to find Jason straightening up the house and then we watched Alias together. The eppy was PHENOMENAL. I rate it a 9! I was shocked, excited, thrilled, anxious, and thrilled all at once! I'm SO RELIEVED that it's returned in full swing. Unfortuntely, I only have 3 more eppy's until the finale.
Last, but not least, I want to say that I'm determining to find the good and grab a hold of it while I have it. There are so many things I want to take and have that are available in IL. I'm going to do just that.
Hugs and Blessings to all!
Jae