a long time i know
but so much shit has been going on lately & i haven't always been to a comp online. i really don't feel like talking about it yet, not even on here. but i did learn not to open up & trust humans, no matter how much non blood they might have or into indian stuff. if you trust & open up you get hurt. it really freaking hurt bad this time so i can't go through that pain again. i'm not sure i'll survive next time. hell, there's been days lately i'm not sure i'll survive this time either. i know my body will but i mean inside me, where the real me is. if i hear songs on the radio or see a silver jeep go down the road i start crying. even at work.