Life Report
Yea right now i dunno what to right about cuz nothing in my life is that exciting except for Rugby. So i'll write about my life. Right now my life is ok.. it's not shitty like it has been in the past but its nowhere as good as i would like it to be. I feel like i'm losing more and more friends and it sucks. Friends are my life. I'd do anything for them and hopefully they would do the same with me. I still miss her and wish i was hers but that won't happen because i fucked that up a long time ago. I just sit here feeling sorry for myself which i gotta stop cuz i know everyone is getting tired of me bitching about my life and how shitty and fucked up it is.
Yes my life is fucked up. I have this girl who won't leave me the fuck alone and acts like a damn stalker and won't leave me the fuck alone. Everyone knows who it is but i won't say her name. Then she tries to put a guilt trip on me even though she is the lieing ass skank that doesn't wanna tell the people the truth and tries to play games with them. Well I'm not into that type of shit so move on cuz i'm not loving you, i'm not gonna be your friend i'm not gonna be anything to you except a memory.
Right now though my friends are becoming scarce and scarcer. I dunno if thats word or not but i'll roll with that. My best friend still is Andrew and that will never change we had our ups and downs but thats how all things go. My Best Female friends are Katie and Jessi. I don't talkto jessi that much anymore cuz she actually has a life and works and has a boyfriend that she loves dearly. Katie is so amazing. She's so philosophical and its fun and cute and i know i can always count her for anything. She just amazing and fun and cool and dunno what else to say.
Right now my heart feels empty and feels like i'm missing something maybe its that i'm yearning and wanting a realtionship. Basically Relationships in my life go like this. Friends, I like them, No more friends. thats how it usually goes. Sucks for me but thats how it is and hopefully it will change someday. I'm hoping. I hate being lonely and seeing everyone so lovey dovey and sucks for me cuz i wanna be lovey dovey 2 haha. I guess i gotta become not so nice. I wanna do everything but i can't do everything so i try to do even more and i try to hard to get people to like me. The worse feeling for me is someone hating you or not liking you and you wish they did. I hate that.
My first game for rugby is in 2 weeks and i'm so excited. Practices are getting fun each time. I'm starting to understand what to do and hopefully it should be really fun. I like most of the guys that i play with. Few get on my nerves but hey i'm not gonna worry about it. I made a few new friends and there cool as hell. If you want to come watch a game just tell me i'll tell you when and where and hopefully you'll come. Nuts rugby is the shit. By the way i play the hooker haha so we'll let your minds figure that out.
I'm excited about Football. Senior year.. one more year and i'm gone and it's gonna be all a blur. I love some aspects of highschool but college i hope is a lot better for me and treat me better. I'm just excited. I'm gonna miss a lot of people but i'll never forget them.
School is school. I gotta work on some aspects like my chemistry and bringing my history grade up to what it really should be. It's just hard and i dunno what to do or act or what. Highschool is where i'm trying to find and understand myself. Because right now i dunno the first thing about me. Which is sad...
Well I'm done writing.. Leave a comment or 2 if you'd like
Yes my life is fucked up. I have this girl who won't leave me the fuck alone and acts like a damn stalker and won't leave me the fuck alone. Everyone knows who it is but i won't say her name. Then she tries to put a guilt trip on me even though she is the lieing ass skank that doesn't wanna tell the people the truth and tries to play games with them. Well I'm not into that type of shit so move on cuz i'm not loving you, i'm not gonna be your friend i'm not gonna be anything to you except a memory.
Right now though my friends are becoming scarce and scarcer. I dunno if thats word or not but i'll roll with that. My best friend still is Andrew and that will never change we had our ups and downs but thats how all things go. My Best Female friends are Katie and Jessi. I don't talkto jessi that much anymore cuz she actually has a life and works and has a boyfriend that she loves dearly. Katie is so amazing. She's so philosophical and its fun and cute and i know i can always count her for anything. She just amazing and fun and cool and dunno what else to say.
Right now my heart feels empty and feels like i'm missing something maybe its that i'm yearning and wanting a realtionship. Basically Relationships in my life go like this. Friends, I like them, No more friends. thats how it usually goes. Sucks for me but thats how it is and hopefully it will change someday. I'm hoping. I hate being lonely and seeing everyone so lovey dovey and sucks for me cuz i wanna be lovey dovey 2 haha. I guess i gotta become not so nice. I wanna do everything but i can't do everything so i try to do even more and i try to hard to get people to like me. The worse feeling for me is someone hating you or not liking you and you wish they did. I hate that.
My first game for rugby is in 2 weeks and i'm so excited. Practices are getting fun each time. I'm starting to understand what to do and hopefully it should be really fun. I like most of the guys that i play with. Few get on my nerves but hey i'm not gonna worry about it. I made a few new friends and there cool as hell. If you want to come watch a game just tell me i'll tell you when and where and hopefully you'll come. Nuts rugby is the shit. By the way i play the hooker haha so we'll let your minds figure that out.
I'm excited about Football. Senior year.. one more year and i'm gone and it's gonna be all a blur. I love some aspects of highschool but college i hope is a lot better for me and treat me better. I'm just excited. I'm gonna miss a lot of people but i'll never forget them.
School is school. I gotta work on some aspects like my chemistry and bringing my history grade up to what it really should be. It's just hard and i dunno what to do or act or what. Highschool is where i'm trying to find and understand myself. Because right now i dunno the first thing about me. Which is sad...
Well I'm done writing.. Leave a comment or 2 if you'd like