What Am I Supposed 2 Do??

[eagleangel7499]

OK....All my life I have done what people want me to do. Well enough is enough. A bunch of people including Trav's parents, My pastors at church, and our current roommate think that becuase Trav and I aren't married we shouldn't live together. Before I move in with Trav it was either move in with him and his roommate, or live out on the street. And there is no way in hell Trav would allow me to live on the street. I was gonna move out of here and in with some people from church, but with Trav having no job, that kinda threw that idea out the window. Today I find out that our roommate told Trav that he thinks he can do better then me. Maybe its true....he prob. does deserve better then me, considering my past history. But you know what....he doesn't want anyone but me 'cause all the friends that he has that are girls are all too young for him and not his type. Trav and I despretly wanna get married....so people get off our backs and so we can live our lives the way we want to. I know what you all are thinking....I wanna get married so bad I don't care to who. That was the case until I started dating Trav. Trav and I clicked from day 1. It just took me 4 1/2 years to realize how much i really love him and wanna be with him. right now i am at the point where i just wanna burst into tears..... I know I have made mistakes in the past, but who hasn't. I am trying really hard to better myself and make a better life for me and Trav. I am going to church again. I'm not dressing as sexy as I used to.

well i guess thats all for now....
To those of you who have stuck by me through thick and thin....I can't thank you enough.....
I love you all from the bottom of my heart.

~**Butterfli**~