memmories, how sad
this is so sad .. i have been trying to get to sleep for probably the past 4 hours.. im soo tired and sore and i just want to go to bed .. i have to be up in 3 hours to go to the gym.. yea fat ass.. naw j/k but ya .. and i just cant get to sleep.. i was going through my stuff.. making it easier so that i dont have to go through it all in august.. and i came across some old yearbooks of my elementary and middle school at Huntington...
its soo sad.. im a really sentimental person.... and i miss all of these people soo much.. i completely and 100% regret not getting to knopw them better, not spending more time with them. i have seriously been sitting here for the past few hours remeniscing, tears runing down my face. its just very sad... there are some people that i really cared about and i just stoped talking to them as soon as i moved.. and me being the lazy slefish person i am i never made any effort to get in touch with them.. though i know things would be different.. occasionally ill be in the mall, or at work, or at the club and ill see a familiar face from back then adn then i will notice how much they have all changed, how much i have changed.. i only hope that i have changed for the better.. i d like to think so .. i mean physically i have, i was really ugly back then...not that im anything special, but geesh there was definately room for improvement.. im more open and friendly now too.. i used to be soo quiet and reserved and corny.. i like who i am now..
but back to the matter at hand.. this is really scary for me.. i havent really told anyone this so.. i dont know its kind of awkward, but hell its almost 3 in the morning ill say some crazy shit when im tired.. but yea.. i dont know, i want it soo much and im soo looking forward to it, i think it will be good for me to start new andget away from all the garbage around here.. but im soo scared.. i dont take change lightly, i dont easily adjust.. and everything will be soo different and new...i dunno i guess i just have to open to it..
well well i will yet again, after getting all this garbage off my chest, yet again attempt to go to sleep.. though all hell is breaking loose in my mind about everything.. all you henniger people that know me..... im coming to your graduation.. and im making it a point to say hi to everyone of you.. ha im a dork.. well all my love.. ( i just got my comp back ) so ill try to update more.. mwaa
its soo sad.. im a really sentimental person.... and i miss all of these people soo much.. i completely and 100% regret not getting to knopw them better, not spending more time with them. i have seriously been sitting here for the past few hours remeniscing, tears runing down my face. its just very sad... there are some people that i really cared about and i just stoped talking to them as soon as i moved.. and me being the lazy slefish person i am i never made any effort to get in touch with them.. though i know things would be different.. occasionally ill be in the mall, or at work, or at the club and ill see a familiar face from back then adn then i will notice how much they have all changed, how much i have changed.. i only hope that i have changed for the better.. i d like to think so .. i mean physically i have, i was really ugly back then...not that im anything special, but geesh there was definately room for improvement.. im more open and friendly now too.. i used to be soo quiet and reserved and corny.. i like who i am now..
but back to the matter at hand.. this is really scary for me.. i havent really told anyone this so.. i dont know its kind of awkward, but hell its almost 3 in the morning ill say some crazy shit when im tired.. but yea.. i dont know, i want it soo much and im soo looking forward to it, i think it will be good for me to start new andget away from all the garbage around here.. but im soo scared.. i dont take change lightly, i dont easily adjust.. and everything will be soo different and new...i dunno i guess i just have to open to it..
well well i will yet again, after getting all this garbage off my chest, yet again attempt to go to sleep.. though all hell is breaking loose in my mind about everything.. all you henniger people that know me..... im coming to your graduation.. and im making it a point to say hi to everyone of you.. ha im a dork.. well all my love.. ( i just got my comp back ) so ill try to update more.. mwaa