..why should you want to know? Don't you worry about the future..
So i got 4th out of the section..(translates into 1st) I'm really surprised i did that well. i worked my ass off after marching band season to get that.. and i'm really happy about it. I just think other people got robbed.. Leslie 5th? Thats not right. No Way. Danielle 1st?! gah! The only thing i could think was.. maybe shes able to have alot of air? i dunno.. But Emilie should have gotten higher in the flutes, and I think Steph and Ash should have gotten higher.
For the past few days i've felt so blah. I don't know how to explain it. I've felt naseous, so i haven't eaten.. i've maybe had one meal a day, and thats all i eat, I just want someone to hold me. I'm always going after the wrong guys too, so it'll never work out. I dunno and i don't wanna act sad, cause i don't wanna bring other people down, so everybody goes on thinking i'm alright, which i guess is good in a way, but i just hate knowing its not. I'm just sick of being tired, and feeling so empty. I hate coming up on the holidays feeling so alone, i just want someone to hold, or someone to hold me when i'm feeling like this. but i have no one. and couples are always so happy around the holidays.. I don't blame them for being happy, i just blame myself for being the way i am. I just want a boyfriend.. yeah okay theres my being dumb.. i know i should be an independent girl blah blah blah.. but its just around the holidays maybe december-january i feel like this.. then i go back to feeling somewhat normal.. though i know a part of me always wants to find someone... sorry that i just bored you to death
Well on the brighter side, Cotillion is coming I love my dress... except it accents my fat roll, do that makes me a little sad.. i'll just get something to suck everything in.. lol, but today i went shopping with amy after we went to crossroads with interact. I got earrings, bracelet, ring, a wrist brace, and shoes. It should be fun, even if i don't have a date. But what can ya do? Fat rolls will do that to you.
Well.. i'm excited, i get a JCS tape :D i LOVED that show with all my heart and soul.. congrats to all the cast and crew.
I'm thinking about redoing my room.. maybe a yellow color, i would paint music notes randomly on the walls, and as a border near the ceiling, i would make a border of blank CDS (the shiny back part of it) whatcha think??
well thats my entry hope everythings going well with everybody.