Watch my back
Like so many times before i am once again on the outside. Perpetually the spare wheel; ignored and yet constantly barraged by fake fawning, proclaiming that im invaluable, that im wanted, that im not interrupting or not in the way.
My silent, formal posture, thats not for your benifit. Its for me. Its what i have in defense. Im silent for now to keep me from blowing up the next time im told about a group event you didnt bother to tell me about so i could participate.
You know ive gone through relationships where this is how it ended......i dont want to lose the friendship but well this isnt all that friendly.
The feelings of one person, fhe newest to the group, are trumping the feelings of one who has been with you during some of ypur darkest hours. Who has helped you off the floor when you were flipping between crying and raging. When your son was kidnapped, when his daughters were sexually assaulted. We developed a repore and now any thing i feel or opinions i have are invalid and well like i said, again....im invisable, im invalid, im not wanted.
So watch my back as i do amazing things without you.
My silent, formal posture, thats not for your benifit. Its for me. Its what i have in defense. Im silent for now to keep me from blowing up the next time im told about a group event you didnt bother to tell me about so i could participate.
You know ive gone through relationships where this is how it ended......i dont want to lose the friendship but well this isnt all that friendly.
The feelings of one person, fhe newest to the group, are trumping the feelings of one who has been with you during some of ypur darkest hours. Who has helped you off the floor when you were flipping between crying and raging. When your son was kidnapped, when his daughters were sexually assaulted. We developed a repore and now any thing i feel or opinions i have are invalid and well like i said, again....im invisable, im invalid, im not wanted.
So watch my back as i do amazing things without you.