Can you skip a step and miss your fate?
The other day i was laying in my bed watching sex and the city, its a good show.
Mostly about 30 year old women and sex but Carrie
the main character is a collum writer and sometimes she gets really deep.
Well in the episode that i was watching she wrote an article about fate..
something i deeeply believe in.
She ask herself "can you skip a step and miss your fate"
That scared me and got me thinking as well.
Since im a beliver in it i got worried this might be true.
Can you wonder off your corse? can you make a wrong turn?
and if so can you get back on if youve fallen off?
I started to think about every descion i had made that day
even the small ones.
I know that ever desicion i make weather im thirsty or not is lifechanging
those desicions could effect me in some way
that they alter the corse of my life
but i do hope mountain dew or orange juice is that important.
But now im always caucious about my desicions.
I want to make the best choice that makes a difference. I DONT WANT T REGRET.
Not regretting something in your life is impossible
there is always something to regret
but i want to make sure there is somethings i know that i had conrtoll over
and that i made the right desicion.
but enough rambling about that for now.
What have i been up to over this vacation?
Let me explain....
Ive hung out with Jj, Alana, Pete, and Dan almost everyday.
Mostly Jj thought.
Other than that ive just been working.
New years was fun.
Jj pete and dan and i went to kyle barrigans for a while
then made it over to allisons right before the ball dropped.
it was fun and im glad i spent my new years with Jj.
But when i was at allisons party something hit me.
Although there were ten million people over her house i kept
running into andrew.
i didnt know weather to smile at him say hi or what
so most of the time all i could do was just stare.
I didnt know weather i missed him wanted to talk to him or what
but i gave me a complete feeeling of shittyness all over me.
I was holding Jjs hand the whole time and i didnt know what to do
part of me wanted to rub it in his face and the other didnt want him to see
But when i went out side with Jj to smoke a cig we went over and talked to Devin
he asked Jj "is this your new girl friend"?
and of course Jj said "no were just sorta haning out" which is true.
i must admit it was kinda shitty but then again true.
a few moments later andrew came out side and stood talking with trevor a few feet away
and something happend i just stood there and held Jjs hand not even
giving andrew the slightest glance.
it didnt even bother me that he was a few feet away.
it didnt bother me either that me and jj aren going out.
im content just the way that i am right now.
im fine with andrew im fine with Jj im fine with my life.
besides ashley tork kelsey mel etc they can still go fuck themselves.
But i like where things are going and i dont want to spoil them.
For the rest of the night i just let things be. i held jjs hang and had fun
it was new years what did i have to be worried about.
But a few minutes later Andrew hit some italian and then a fight broke out.
form what i heard andrew has a black eye.
i feel bad but hey.... it isnt my problem anymore.
The way things are going i think im going to be fine.
and i dont think im skipping any steps im just taking them as they come.
Mostly about 30 year old women and sex but Carrie
the main character is a collum writer and sometimes she gets really deep.
Well in the episode that i was watching she wrote an article about fate..
something i deeeply believe in.
She ask herself "can you skip a step and miss your fate"
That scared me and got me thinking as well.
Since im a beliver in it i got worried this might be true.
Can you wonder off your corse? can you make a wrong turn?
and if so can you get back on if youve fallen off?
I started to think about every descion i had made that day
even the small ones.
I know that ever desicion i make weather im thirsty or not is lifechanging
those desicions could effect me in some way
that they alter the corse of my life
but i do hope mountain dew or orange juice is that important.
But now im always caucious about my desicions.
I want to make the best choice that makes a difference. I DONT WANT T REGRET.
Not regretting something in your life is impossible
there is always something to regret
but i want to make sure there is somethings i know that i had conrtoll over
and that i made the right desicion.
but enough rambling about that for now.
What have i been up to over this vacation?
Let me explain....
Ive hung out with Jj, Alana, Pete, and Dan almost everyday.
Mostly Jj thought.
Other than that ive just been working.
New years was fun.
Jj pete and dan and i went to kyle barrigans for a while
then made it over to allisons right before the ball dropped.
it was fun and im glad i spent my new years with Jj.
But when i was at allisons party something hit me.
Although there were ten million people over her house i kept
running into andrew.
i didnt know weather to smile at him say hi or what
so most of the time all i could do was just stare.
I didnt know weather i missed him wanted to talk to him or what
but i gave me a complete feeeling of shittyness all over me.
I was holding Jjs hand the whole time and i didnt know what to do
part of me wanted to rub it in his face and the other didnt want him to see
But when i went out side with Jj to smoke a cig we went over and talked to Devin
he asked Jj "is this your new girl friend"?
and of course Jj said "no were just sorta haning out" which is true.
i must admit it was kinda shitty but then again true.
a few moments later andrew came out side and stood talking with trevor a few feet away
and something happend i just stood there and held Jjs hand not even
giving andrew the slightest glance.
it didnt even bother me that he was a few feet away.
it didnt bother me either that me and jj aren going out.
im content just the way that i am right now.
im fine with andrew im fine with Jj im fine with my life.
besides ashley tork kelsey mel etc they can still go fuck themselves.
But i like where things are going and i dont want to spoil them.
For the rest of the night i just let things be. i held jjs hang and had fun
it was new years what did i have to be worried about.
But a few minutes later Andrew hit some italian and then a fight broke out.
form what i heard andrew has a black eye.
i feel bad but hey.... it isnt my problem anymore.
The way things are going i think im going to be fine.
and i dont think im skipping any steps im just taking them as they come.