empty eyes

[e_wrecked]

i dont sleep anymore.

seriously.

i was the queen of sleep.
i could lay around all day falling in and out of sleep, after sleeping 12 hours the night before.

and happily.

i love my sleep.
even though i have always been pained by horrible nightmares, sleep is something i adore.

i cant do it anymore.

i feel the uneasy tired feeling, but sleep doesnt come to me.

and i need it more than anything.
i need a clear mind.
and the beauty part of it couldnt hurt me right about now either.

i can fall asleep for maybe 2 hours... and thats in the afternoon.
i stay up all night.

i need

drugs
or
someones chest to lay on
or
a punch in the temple
or...

i need an empty head

and i have no idea how to clear mine.