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[e_tothe_lise8]

"Lost Faith"
And my tears will fall like sand
Into a desert
Nothing noticeable
Among the others
Why don’t you walk out that door again
I think I can still take it
I’m sick of living in your insecurity
Your disgust
I’m sick of living with your discouragement
I’m sick of you never believing in me

Go on
I can take another hypocrite
After all, you taught me the game
Just leave
Like you always do
Apologize in the morning
Like it never happened
Go on
Take my sorrow with you
I’ll leave you a bag of my tears
You use them more than I do

I don’t need your faithlessness
I don’t need your pity
You don’t hurt me when you hate me
I know you lie
I watch you drinking every night
It’s not like I’m the only one afraid
So drown your sorrows
I’ve got plenty that we can share

Why don’t you just keep pretending
Like a rose with pointed thorns
I stopped believing you so long ago
So long ago, when you stopped believing in me
There’s another side
To every story
Why don’t you open it up and take a look
I think I could deal with you
Replacing your hate for her
With hate for me
I know we all need to yell sometimes
I’ll swallow it up, dear
I’ll take it like I always do
Because I know you’ll forget it
When you’re sleeping through your guilt

Maybe if you gave me a chance
I could prove it to you
I guess we’ll have to wait and see
But then, we’ll never be equals, will we
But maybe
Just maybe
If you took a minute to forget
All that you loathe
You would see that it’s not me you hate
It’s not life you despise
You just wish that it wasn’t you
That felt this way