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It's ... surprising, and tricky to work out how to deal with things working out exactly right. Dad's got no permanent damage and expected to make a full recovery. These are odd things.
The most loving dog is very loving, but old (13) and this scares me. I push people away and find intimacy and loss hard (I tend to not want pets because I don't want to take losing them) but then I've been one of the ones most caring for and paying attention to them at the end. I push people away and can have trouble letting them in. But letting go's hard.
Politics is a mess. Such a such a such a mess. One of my best friends is by my parents' new place. And all this is good. I'm getting my second 6'6"-ginger-St-Andrews-undergrad-with-me-before-PhD-in-Bath friends into climbing. (I like coaching. I should maybe work at improving my own more -- I've been kinda static for seven-odd years. But I like helping others get better.)
And the whole "my dad is dying" was a bit of a momentary focus but I need to get a new now, now.
The most loving dog is very loving, but old (13) and this scares me. I push people away and find intimacy and loss hard (I tend to not want pets because I don't want to take losing them) but then I've been one of the ones most caring for and paying attention to them at the end. I push people away and can have trouble letting them in. But letting go's hard.
Politics is a mess. Such a such a such a mess. One of my best friends is by my parents' new place. And all this is good. I'm getting my second 6'6"-ginger-St-Andrews-undergrad-with-me-before-PhD-in-Bath friends into climbing. (I like coaching. I should maybe work at improving my own more -- I've been kinda static for seven-odd years. But I like helping others get better.)
And the whole "my dad is dying" was a bit of a momentary focus but I need to get a new now, now.