What else is gonna happen?
Well a bunch of dumb ass shit has happened n it's all startin to weigh me down. I guess my dad is finally done with his gf. I haven't found any recent proof so I hope that's fuckin done with. Matt is being childish and dumb but I'm not even gonna bother gettin into that retarded shit. My mom had surgery on thursday to see if she has breast cancer and we found out today that she does. I don't want to lose my mother. She's the closest thing to me in my life. I love her so much. I don't know how bad her cancer is but she will have to go for Chemo or however u spell it n have more surgery. I hate how my mom has yet another sickness to deal with now. My family and I r making her quit smoking n I honestly can say that there's no way I will be able to anytime soon. I wish I never started but with all this fuckin stress I have I won't have anywhere near the amount of will power to do anything but smoke n drink. I'll have to work of course. but I won't be able to stop smoking that's for god damn sure. I can't stand how shit has to happen all the time to my family. I know everyone has there problems n shit but with all the problems we have right now, this tops it all, and topples everything over. I wish I had help. I wish I had someone to talk to. I wish I had someone period. And most of all I wish my Mother wasn't sick at all, I wish she'd jus become completely healed n be abl to do everything she used to. I'd give anyhting for that...............