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"Breaks" as many people like to call them, are not my cup of tea. I simply enjoy life for the moments, sweet or sour. Its life and I love to live it and work through it no matter what the circumstance. I have been struggling with this separation for 11 days now, but I need to keep reminding myself why it wasn't working.
No matter what I'm doing, who I'm with or how much fun I'm having, there is always a residual feeling of John in my head + heart. I've gotten to the point where I enjoy getting his emails everyday, as though I am expecting to receive one. I love knowing how he's doing and what he's thinking about, I just hope that he never forgets my love and attention I've shown him and that my heart is his so long as he is putting the effort and care into our relationship.
The next week is going to be a tough one. This is the first weekend trip that has been canceled. And next weekend we were supposed to have a "couples weekend" with his friends outside of Montgomery. I can only hope that this makes the void worse and force realizations.
This is my last week of doing 7 concept sketches and 2 scale models for friday... after 5 long weeks of ideation. Tomorrow will be a long day.
This afternoon Katie and I went to a new class called power rhythms. Basically we took a big athletic bouncy ball and put it in a rubbermaid container creating our "drum". The class consisted of us taking PVC sticks and beating on these balls. Pam taught the class so ofcourse it was a great time! It really reminded me of John, anytime I see drums I think of him. He's always drumming on something!
Chin up...
No matter what I'm doing, who I'm with or how much fun I'm having, there is always a residual feeling of John in my head + heart. I've gotten to the point where I enjoy getting his emails everyday, as though I am expecting to receive one. I love knowing how he's doing and what he's thinking about, I just hope that he never forgets my love and attention I've shown him and that my heart is his so long as he is putting the effort and care into our relationship.
The next week is going to be a tough one. This is the first weekend trip that has been canceled. And next weekend we were supposed to have a "couples weekend" with his friends outside of Montgomery. I can only hope that this makes the void worse and force realizations.
This is my last week of doing 7 concept sketches and 2 scale models for friday... after 5 long weeks of ideation. Tomorrow will be a long day.
This afternoon Katie and I went to a new class called power rhythms. Basically we took a big athletic bouncy ball and put it in a rubbermaid container creating our "drum". The class consisted of us taking PVC sticks and beating on these balls. Pam taught the class so ofcourse it was a great time! It really reminded me of John, anytime I see drums I think of him. He's always drumming on something!
Chin up...