eff Johnson & Johnson + finals.
I feel so horrible right now. I just found out that I didn't get the internship position which offered $20,000 at Johnson and Johnson. I know things just weren't meant to be, I know that I thought that man was a complete douchebag and probably couldn't have stomached him for 6 months anyway... but the money and the experience would have helped me so much. Now I'm sitting here, working on finals and typing this inbetween renderings for one of my 2 final projects in studio. I have no time to think about my feelings of inadequacy. I think about some of the girls they have hired from my school already and how I always thought I was better than them, more talented or more intellectual... but no. I'm so frustrated and so down and its really bad timing. I feel like crying, not just because of J&J, but because as if school hasn't made me crazy enough already...... now I have no idea where my life is headed, I have no plans further than december..... fuck.fuck.fuck.
15 days until Taiwan and soo much to do between now and then. ugh :\
15 days until Taiwan and soo much to do between now and then. ugh :\