something must be sick and wrong cus i can't seem to find my remote!

[e_man_walkah]

iamsickandtired.

so tired.

i don't know how to get over this.
i don't know how to make him open up.

i don't know how to make her see my side.
i don't know how to make everything ok again.

i don't know how to make her accept herself, and me.

i don't know how to make her care more.

i don't know how to not get sucked into her teases.

i don't know how to feel closer to her.

(those last four were all different people b t dubb)

i just don't know anything.
OK???

I DON'T KNOW.

i am no genius. i am no supermodel. i am no superhero. i am not perfect.

get it? i am NOT PERFECT.

no where close.

and i don't ever want to be.
not even for a second.

so maybe i make mistakes. and maybe i say stupid things. and maybe i can't stand it every once in a while.

so maybe i run away everytime i even come close. and maybe i'm scared of what comes next.

so maybe i'm kinda ditzy at times. so maybe i sing a lot. and maybe i seem so confident on the outside, but am really nervous and afraid on the inside.

so maybe i have huge, unrealistic dreams. maybe i think that just by wishing, my life will unfold.

maybe i'm a total fake. maybe i act one way to somebody and a totally different way to soembody else.

SO MAYBE I AM.

so what?
that's me.
that's just who i am.

i choose to be some of it, and i wish i wasn't some of it.
but it's me.

take it or leave it.