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sooo i'm coming back to texas in about a week
i think i fly in on the 1st
then i have about 10 days to get all my shit together for school
wow how time flies
i have to be at school on the 11th for rush week
yup that's right...
erin murphy is going to be a sorority girl
this whole college thing is just hilarious to me
it feels like i'm going to summer camp
while i have faced the fact that i'll be going there very shortly
i think i have yet to come to terms with the fact that this is
as far as i can tell for now
my future for the next four years
i'm still looking at it as if its like a vacation
it's strange to think that i'm LEAVING
and so is EVERYONE else
my life as i know it right now
is never going to be like this again
and all at once
i feel like cutting ties with everyone and everything
and at the same time
compelled to reunite with people who i have lost touch with
it's like i want to revisit everything that has been important to me
take a walk down memory lane per-say
try to figure out who i am and who i'm going to be
based on how i have interacted in past years
i'm not a kid anymore
and for as "independent" i have been this past year
i'm not ready for it
i'm not ready to be the underclassman again
to be the little idiot
to be completely nieve all over again
i'm so sick of being new and clueless
but i guess that's sortof going to be it from now on
from here on out
nothing is permanant
so far it has been easy
because it was like
no matter where you were you had a home
and you had a core group of people to "go back to"
i mean it was slightly different for me with the move and all
but i still always felt as if i had a home here
it's like
not just for me
but for everyone
we don't have that base anymore
it's going to be like... spend some time at school
spend some time at home
even though it's not quite home anymore
make friends from all over the place
then four years from now
where do i go?
from then on what happens
i am about to enter that last part of my life
before "real life"
i
am
so
unprepared
but still sortof excited
i have a sinking feeling though
that i am really not going to fit in
i think i fly in on the 1st
then i have about 10 days to get all my shit together for school
wow how time flies
i have to be at school on the 11th for rush week
yup that's right...
erin murphy is going to be a sorority girl
this whole college thing is just hilarious to me
it feels like i'm going to summer camp
while i have faced the fact that i'll be going there very shortly
i think i have yet to come to terms with the fact that this is
as far as i can tell for now
my future for the next four years
i'm still looking at it as if its like a vacation
it's strange to think that i'm LEAVING
and so is EVERYONE else
my life as i know it right now
is never going to be like this again
and all at once
i feel like cutting ties with everyone and everything
and at the same time
compelled to reunite with people who i have lost touch with
it's like i want to revisit everything that has been important to me
take a walk down memory lane per-say
try to figure out who i am and who i'm going to be
based on how i have interacted in past years
i'm not a kid anymore
and for as "independent" i have been this past year
i'm not ready for it
i'm not ready to be the underclassman again
to be the little idiot
to be completely nieve all over again
i'm so sick of being new and clueless
but i guess that's sortof going to be it from now on
from here on out
nothing is permanant
so far it has been easy
because it was like
no matter where you were you had a home
and you had a core group of people to "go back to"
i mean it was slightly different for me with the move and all
but i still always felt as if i had a home here
it's like
not just for me
but for everyone
we don't have that base anymore
it's going to be like... spend some time at school
spend some time at home
even though it's not quite home anymore
make friends from all over the place
then four years from now
where do i go?
from then on what happens
i am about to enter that last part of my life
before "real life"
i
am
so
unprepared
but still sortof excited
i have a sinking feeling though
that i am really not going to fit in