Aug 21, 2003 12:48
I don't like to think of myself as avoidant, but it's been weeks and we still haven't left this place for New York. I don't want to leave.
I should have so much more to say here. The time here has been incredible. He is incredible. There aren't words for how beautiful he is--he lights up here. It's fun to watch him. It's fun to see him here, incredibly fun to make him find me when I get "lost". Fun to threaten to toss him in the moat, and even fun the one time he's actually followed through with his threat of retaliation.
It's really immature to be seeking this fun over responsibility. Eventually I'll recover.