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Exhausted.
Working a ton, like today's 13 hour shift after an 8 hour drive after the same 8 hour drive, on 7 hours of sleep for the past 3 days.
I can't WAIT to be married. I picked the right lady. She's gonna be a good wife, a good partner, and an amazing mother. I hope we can work out whatever is keeping us from holding each other in check like we know we should, but I can tell we are getting there. I am very happy!
I'm starving. I have no more money. I ate a big meal for lunch today, and was still hungry, and I'm just all-around hungry.
I'm beginning to see that the greatest of problems for people, the reason people succeed and suffer, the reason people don't know why their hard work isn't paying off, the reason people give up is because of our bodily self-preservation. It's selfishness, because it is to say that you would, come the choice, choose your own physical life over anything else. God demands we give, and give, and give, until we have nothing left to give, and then give more, and He will fill us up. It isn't a leap of faith until you see the risk, and it isn't really selfless love until it hurts, at least once. We aren't called to take rest, we are called to continue, and we will be GIVEN rest.
My days are hard work, and I'm tired, and stuff is difficult for me, financially and logistically. But I feel hugely that I have forgotten that all of what I'm doing is temporary, for me to get to the end of this little journey so I can get back to work! I gotta put my feet down, get to where I'm not needlessly abusing myself, and start an amazing marriage for the sake of our future children, and never forget that I don't get to retire, keep everything for myself, pamper myself, and live without thought of the latter end--of the my life, my money, my actions, my thoughts.
I'm so stoked to be Wes' prayer partner. I needed a job like that.
Eamon
Working a ton, like today's 13 hour shift after an 8 hour drive after the same 8 hour drive, on 7 hours of sleep for the past 3 days.
I can't WAIT to be married. I picked the right lady. She's gonna be a good wife, a good partner, and an amazing mother. I hope we can work out whatever is keeping us from holding each other in check like we know we should, but I can tell we are getting there. I am very happy!
I'm starving. I have no more money. I ate a big meal for lunch today, and was still hungry, and I'm just all-around hungry.
I'm beginning to see that the greatest of problems for people, the reason people succeed and suffer, the reason people don't know why their hard work isn't paying off, the reason people give up is because of our bodily self-preservation. It's selfishness, because it is to say that you would, come the choice, choose your own physical life over anything else. God demands we give, and give, and give, until we have nothing left to give, and then give more, and He will fill us up. It isn't a leap of faith until you see the risk, and it isn't really selfless love until it hurts, at least once. We aren't called to take rest, we are called to continue, and we will be GIVEN rest.
My days are hard work, and I'm tired, and stuff is difficult for me, financially and logistically. But I feel hugely that I have forgotten that all of what I'm doing is temporary, for me to get to the end of this little journey so I can get back to work! I gotta put my feet down, get to where I'm not needlessly abusing myself, and start an amazing marriage for the sake of our future children, and never forget that I don't get to retire, keep everything for myself, pamper myself, and live without thought of the latter end--of the my life, my money, my actions, my thoughts.
I'm so stoked to be Wes' prayer partner. I needed a job like that.
Eamon