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you know.....
through my observations......my realizations.....I've come to see that I am probably happier than 90% of the people who attend my school. most of them are too concerned with the future to enjoy the present....and they will do this all thier life. I try to draw a line in between the two.....although I am sometimes guilty of enjoying the present too much, with little discern for the future. however these past few months have been my grand effort to restore my goals.
I truely feel sorry for the people who dont enjoy life. I mean....I try and make everything fun, while still maintaining the seriousness of it...(well, most of it.)....and anyone who knows me knows that that is true. friends are essential....just as essential as family. I dont know...I think I'm just ranting...and I was positive I started writing this to make a point...which is now long forgotten. I just wish that people would take thier head out of their ass for one minute and see what they're missing in life; in the present, and try new things.
anyway...
I got the new Cursive album.....and there's this song called The Recluse on it...and I love it:
I wake alone
in a woman's room I hardly know
I wake alone
and pretend that I am finally home
Her room is littered with her books
and notebooks
I imagine what they say
like, "Shoe fly, don't bother me"
and I can hardly get myself out of her bed
for fear of never lying in this bed again
Oh christ -- I'm not that desperate --
oh no, oh god, i am
How'd I end up here to begin with?
I don't know
Why do I start what I can't finish?
Oh, please don't barage me with the questions
to all those lovely answers
My ego's like my stomach
it keeps shitting what I feed it
but maybe I don't want to finish anything anymore
maybe I can wait in bed till she comes home
and whispers, "You're in my web now
I've come to wrap you up tight till it's time to bite down"
I wake alone
in a woman's room I hardly know
I wake alone
and pretend that I am finally home
home
through my observations......my realizations.....I've come to see that I am probably happier than 90% of the people who attend my school. most of them are too concerned with the future to enjoy the present....and they will do this all thier life. I try to draw a line in between the two.....although I am sometimes guilty of enjoying the present too much, with little discern for the future. however these past few months have been my grand effort to restore my goals.
I truely feel sorry for the people who dont enjoy life. I mean....I try and make everything fun, while still maintaining the seriousness of it...(well, most of it.)....and anyone who knows me knows that that is true. friends are essential....just as essential as family. I dont know...I think I'm just ranting...and I was positive I started writing this to make a point...which is now long forgotten. I just wish that people would take thier head out of their ass for one minute and see what they're missing in life; in the present, and try new things.
anyway...
I got the new Cursive album.....and there's this song called The Recluse on it...and I love it:
I wake alone
in a woman's room I hardly know
I wake alone
and pretend that I am finally home
Her room is littered with her books
and notebooks
I imagine what they say
like, "Shoe fly, don't bother me"
and I can hardly get myself out of her bed
for fear of never lying in this bed again
Oh christ -- I'm not that desperate --
oh no, oh god, i am
How'd I end up here to begin with?
I don't know
Why do I start what I can't finish?
Oh, please don't barage me with the questions
to all those lovely answers
My ego's like my stomach
it keeps shitting what I feed it
but maybe I don't want to finish anything anymore
maybe I can wait in bed till she comes home
and whispers, "You're in my web now
I've come to wrap you up tight till it's time to bite down"
I wake alone
in a woman's room I hardly know
I wake alone
and pretend that I am finally home
home