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things arn't getting better. they're not getting worse, they're just kind of stagnant for the moment. but i'm just nervous, crouched on the edge of this precipice waiting to be pushed over. i feel volitile and twitchy, nervous at every conversation, even being in the same room with my mom. if it's not one thing, it's another. it's driving me insane. i'm accepting school, i'm accepting dmacc, but i'm not going to accept losing jay. i refuse to. and she's just going to have to deal with it.