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i have been feeling really on edge lately. really untrusting. really cynical. it seems that you can only be "the strong person" for so long. can you really grieve just to grieve? its summer, its supposed to be fun, relaxing, carefree, etc. so why do i feel so low? i have never been so emotional and exhausted. i just can't wait for the day when i can finally let go and be happy. it just seems like all the things that used to make me feel better are gone or disappointing. people have changed. or they haven't changed and i have been nieve. maybe thats it. i am always the one people talk to. and its starting to take its toll on me. when is this going to end. i need a little sunshine in my life.