The reverse happened of what I wanted. All over the place.
Where to even start. Well, okay, with the weight.
So, instead of plowing headfirst into not eating (original plan), I practically recovered.
Gained none, lost none, been eating normally, not exercising.
Still 155. Still at least 20 pounds to lose.
Number two. Haven't gotten a new job. Still. Friend who is responsible for me eating (or at least, I blame him) is bringing me to job interview tomorrow when he goes in to work.
Because of this asshole, I'm not going to be able to stop completely until he goes back to college. He is one scary fucker. Falcon punched an anorexic chick he was friends with because she refused to eat when he told her to. Hilarious yet irritating to me.
Number three. Freedom has died. I am now in a monogamous relationship.
With a really awesome guy, but still.
It's weird. And scary. And I trust him. I don't trust ANYONE. But I trust him.
Fucking hell.
Also, I should prolly delete this account because I have pics of myself on it and this particular fine gentleman is very well known in some circles (anime con celebrity) and I was his armcandy for last convention I went to.
Not good.
However, I am going to work on summer work, hopefully get that job, and start exercising.
Also, I need to wean myself down to less food, and then I'll be able to stop again during the school year.
When I turn 18, I'm gonna get myself prescribed to Adderall. Mr. Falcon Punch Scary Fucker Physics Major says I actually do display ADHD tendencies, especially cuz of how I react when I do take Addies.
So, maybe I won't be fucking with the medical system and I'll actually be getting something I legitimately need.
Oh snap. Just looked up the ADHD symptoms. I match the inattention one to a T. Weeeeeeeiiirrrrddddd.
And somewhat impulsivity.
"As they grow older, some teens that have had severe ADHD since middle childhood experience periods of anxiety or depression." .... God fucking damn it. Really?
So, instead of plowing headfirst into not eating (original plan), I practically recovered.
Gained none, lost none, been eating normally, not exercising.
Still 155. Still at least 20 pounds to lose.
Number two. Haven't gotten a new job. Still. Friend who is responsible for me eating (or at least, I blame him) is bringing me to job interview tomorrow when he goes in to work.
Because of this asshole, I'm not going to be able to stop completely until he goes back to college. He is one scary fucker. Falcon punched an anorexic chick he was friends with because she refused to eat when he told her to. Hilarious yet irritating to me.
Number three. Freedom has died. I am now in a monogamous relationship.
With a really awesome guy, but still.
It's weird. And scary. And I trust him. I don't trust ANYONE. But I trust him.
Fucking hell.
Also, I should prolly delete this account because I have pics of myself on it and this particular fine gentleman is very well known in some circles (anime con celebrity) and I was his armcandy for last convention I went to.
Not good.
However, I am going to work on summer work, hopefully get that job, and start exercising.
Also, I need to wean myself down to less food, and then I'll be able to stop again during the school year.
When I turn 18, I'm gonna get myself prescribed to Adderall. Mr. Falcon Punch Scary Fucker Physics Major says I actually do display ADHD tendencies, especially cuz of how I react when I do take Addies.
So, maybe I won't be fucking with the medical system and I'll actually be getting something I legitimately need.
Oh snap. Just looked up the ADHD symptoms. I match the inattention one to a T. Weeeeeeeiiirrrrddddd.
And somewhat impulsivity.
"As they grow older, some teens that have had severe ADHD since middle childhood experience periods of anxiety or depression." .... God fucking damn it. Really?