I've got scars on my heart and they won't go away....
yah I have Hilary Duff stuck in my head lol Nothing really new is happening. I got to register yesterday which has been the most exciting part of my week so far...well, except for eating lunch with the hottest freshman ever (Jake). Man he's soooo attractive. I saw him in the dining hall when I first got in there and we passed each other and I turned my head so that maybe he wouldn't see me or something. yah...I was back in 3rd grade for a little bit. I got butterflies in my stomach and my heart started racing....I got nervous. I don't remember the last time I got nervous about a guy like that. haha even with Jonathan who I actually cared about I didn't get like that....I guess I was just so comfortable with him that we never had that nervous point. I don't have feelings for Jake at this point though...I just want to go out with him because he's amazingly good looking. He's got brown eyes, dark brown shaggy hair....aww he's so cute. The problem is (because you know there's always a problem) that he is 1 1/2 years younger than me. oh, and I'll probably never talk to him again unless he calls. whatever though.
I got hit on last night by another delta chi though....that can't be good. Maybe I should just stay away from the house for a while and then everyone will forget me and then I can come back with a fresh slate. lol yah right like that'll happen. the guy just stood up, leaned over me, and whispered, "you're really pretty" and then set back down...it was cute. and he did something along those lines later that night haha so he was the highlight of last night for me. well, besides JJ - the irish singer who was there. He had the best songs ever. One was called "old macdonald had a deformed farm" with a lesbian snake that went "hith hith hith" and a stuttering cow and a turret syndrome chicken and a nympho cat and a perverted frong that went "rub it rub it rub it" haha this song was amazing. another very memorable song was this song about a girl who couldn't get a husband because every time she found a man she wanted to marry, her father would say she couldn't marry him because her dad was their father. so finally, the girl went and complained to her mother and her mother told her to marry whoever she wants because (even though her father didn't know this) she is not her father's daughter. oh my gosh, we were laughing so hard!
Back to school: I think I've decided to TA again next semester. I got a 96 on my engineering graphics test and a 96 on my econ test too. so yay for that. I have 4 weeks of school left. The student that has a crush on me asked me to dinner for this weekend, and of course, I said no because that's a date. and he said no it's just as friends. so I said that friends go out to dinner; one doesn't take the other out to dinner. so he said that we would go to dinner...and he would pay for me. so I said that if that were to happen it wouldn't be until after this semester is over.
I freaked out at James last weekend because he bought me a baseball hat at the football game. I didn't want him to buy me one...he just surprised me with it. I was very upset because now I feel obligated to continue something with him or...I don't know. well, not continue something...but....ugh blah whatever. So I bailed on him for last weekend because we were supposed to go out and after the hat thing I took a raincheck. So, he asked me about that raincheck for this weekend and I avoided it. I don't know what to do. He's too serious about me...and it kind of scares me. why is it that when someone is actually and genuinely interested in me, I get turned off? oof whatever...I'm going to go to bed...it's late haha
I got hit on last night by another delta chi though....that can't be good. Maybe I should just stay away from the house for a while and then everyone will forget me and then I can come back with a fresh slate. lol yah right like that'll happen. the guy just stood up, leaned over me, and whispered, "you're really pretty" and then set back down...it was cute. and he did something along those lines later that night haha so he was the highlight of last night for me. well, besides JJ - the irish singer who was there. He had the best songs ever. One was called "old macdonald had a deformed farm" with a lesbian snake that went "hith hith hith" and a stuttering cow and a turret syndrome chicken and a nympho cat and a perverted frong that went "rub it rub it rub it" haha this song was amazing. another very memorable song was this song about a girl who couldn't get a husband because every time she found a man she wanted to marry, her father would say she couldn't marry him because her dad was their father. so finally, the girl went and complained to her mother and her mother told her to marry whoever she wants because (even though her father didn't know this) she is not her father's daughter. oh my gosh, we were laughing so hard!
Back to school: I think I've decided to TA again next semester. I got a 96 on my engineering graphics test and a 96 on my econ test too. so yay for that. I have 4 weeks of school left. The student that has a crush on me asked me to dinner for this weekend, and of course, I said no because that's a date. and he said no it's just as friends. so I said that friends go out to dinner; one doesn't take the other out to dinner. so he said that we would go to dinner...and he would pay for me. so I said that if that were to happen it wouldn't be until after this semester is over.
I freaked out at James last weekend because he bought me a baseball hat at the football game. I didn't want him to buy me one...he just surprised me with it. I was very upset because now I feel obligated to continue something with him or...I don't know. well, not continue something...but....ugh blah whatever. So I bailed on him for last weekend because we were supposed to go out and after the hat thing I took a raincheck. So, he asked me about that raincheck for this weekend and I avoided it. I don't know what to do. He's too serious about me...and it kind of scares me. why is it that when someone is actually and genuinely interested in me, I get turned off? oof whatever...I'm going to go to bed...it's late haha