when i can't call them "family" anymore
it can't be called as a home either! i hate the way they treat me or even looking at me lately, full of hate. they're always proud of my older brothers "trophies" and never appreciate my tiny "medal". they won't understand, NEVER. no one i can't trust, i'm tired of trying, i have my own way.. and i won't care anymore. thanks to salna, ochi, syifa, anis and my LJ friends gangsta_paradis and nansan_ogawa, they ease my pains, they're my shelters and because of them i won't be alone
oh,God i swear.. You owe me a lot of explanations about what You have decided in my life