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so today was pretty fuckin eventful.woke up crying to the realization of how i was feeling.go to work hear bad news about someone then continued on to a voice mail that led to more bad news than to being lied to then to finding out the truth.i love how everyone finds the need to destroy my happiness and my life in general.i feel as though my heart...my everything....has been ripped to shreds.and for what?i dont know...funny this morning i had the same feeling i had the night before i found out about the other one....something told me this was gonna happen.i will never doubt my intuition again.do people feel its right to do these kind of things to other people?do they even realize how much they might be hurting someone or fucking up their lives.and what if it had happen to them....how would they feel?sure life is short so live in the moment right?sometimes living in the moment is the worse possible thing to do.sometimes thinkin before you do something...thinkin about how it will affect the future and thinking about the consequences is what needs to be done.thats the problem these days.people just dont think anymore.or maybe its just that they dont care.i wish i could do that.i wish i could not think about anything anymore.i wish i couldnt feel anything anymore.i wish i could erase parts of the past.i wish i could erase everyone and everything or rather just myself from this horrible peice of shit of a world.yeah...i'm sure that would make you happy.