cha cha cha changes
things are finally fallin together, catchin up finally with the past debts and such from over 2 years ago... YAY... i'm almost rich again ::ok... eating again,lol:: moved out of geatens finally i guess it took years for me to mend things inside... those who don't show pain on the outside seem to take a bit longer inside... funny thing, no-one ever knows they are dying inside. guess death has its benifits... nothing says party like selfdestruction,lol... i tend to enjoy that side of me and use it these days to focus my goals that need that rockstar, damn... changes... back out to LA in 2 weeks... reading a old friends journal i really do see how dirty philly can be, though it a easy town to live in... everyone knows your name and such... i think its time to break from this 6 blocks i called home for way to long and travel again.. philly tends to make me feel like i'm travelling when i'm not goin anywhere,lol... weird, damnit... fell for it again. what else since i'm feelin open and Blah Blahish, New Sterling actually runs better then my old one... though i miss the t-tops... she makes up for it in yellowness.. not that i would ever willingly buy a yellow car... it has grown on me. (yellow is the color of the fiberglas... the car actually isn't even painted) almost crashed yesterday from this guys flashbulb in my eyes... how do people expect me to drive when they swerve into me takin pics and not watchin the road... lol... the picture of me prolly is one of complete fear... ok, i luv it. well, lets see... it took 3 days to move out of a shoebox room that could of took 3 hours with help from friends... but, seems when it came down to moving out... they weren't around anymore... some of my newest friends say its because they prolly already saw me as movedout, and deal with loss that way-so they decided to leave me alone... i still would of liked the help, guess i left feeling insulted after all the times i helped clear a stage or a car for for a band i was never really in... not that they ever asked me for help... its just what friends do.
so i gave it time... figured a few days i would get a call from my "best friends" on the "hey bro hope u made out ok... whats your new addy, lets catch up..." then it was a week then a month... soon i realized what i had wasn't all what it seemed and that people find new people i guess. Though the move is good for me... i have come to the conclusion that philly is telling me something... i guess i'm oldfashioned to think that best friends want more then a ear to brag to about what they been doing... maybe next time they may ask how i've been, and or ask me to hang out for once; friend said again, well people are udsed to you promoting a good time.. they arent used to bein the one including you... perhaps they are right... lately i've been out of the promotional personality and really just want more of reality.
So now i spend alot of time finishing my new website, clients are rollin in now (guess i knoew finishing it would bring work)... figures now that i'm heading back out west ( i can't take the work here,lol)... but i already decided. my last project has paid for my last 4 months of partying and mental rehabiliation... got another check comin in for the new adventure...stay tuned. IN LA i have more plans then i have days... my boi Lithium and his gurl Venus are settin my ass up... i have a few photogigs with some major photographers updated my OMP.... i have work lined up as well, i have promotion opps downtown and may get into designing more special events for the entertainment industry... tradeshows are fun, but i wanna make the money i do in architecture designing environments i can actually have fun in myself... image dancing in a club u designed (fuck yeah) and may even slide into a night gig too... and even Halloween adventure wants me to run the LA store,lol... fuck it,lol , I can't say how much i have been focused lately...all i know is that i got done in 2 weeks what i didn't do in 2 years of clubbing and such... don't get me wrong... i had a blast, i usually get distracted with everyone elses smiles... i guess i realized that not many people even know what i do for a living, or what i do outside of the club... and i realized how much people see u and just assume what you are... i would settle for five minutes of someone who wants to get inside my head rather then a 2 year party full of faces that think i'm "goth or a chain drinker", i mean common don't judge a man by his dress,lol... reality is my associations are dropping like flys and i really don't care, those who are interested have been there for years... and i'm confident where ever i go... they will remain true to me. Ran away there, but i havent writen in a while so i'm playin catch up...on another note i almost left out the music news, i have a frontman audition commin up for a industrial band forming in westphilly... and another in LA when i get out though that ones more glamish (haha.. time for some big hair,lol)... depending onthe click i think both will help me tremendously with my own voice not to mention help me get a feel for the area music scene. hmmm, what else... lots of road trips lately suckin up the sun i guess, or maybe just enjoyin the car my last sterling was in SF and thier was to many hills to truly open up the throttle... here i guess i'm pushin my luck... this thing fly's last weekend the wheels actually came off the ground,lol talk about a light car... pia was holdin the top down it waz awesome... got back to the city and cruised south street for oldtimes sake... i have to say all the bike cops followed us all the way to WAWA... only to ask what kind of car it waz... one even asked jokingly... does this thing pass inspection... i nearly died as they laughed and the one cop said to pia... that car is a free ticket as he walked away... so i will be down town more... since the other cop we ran into later that night happens to be my new neihbor... i don't feel scared about the inspection sticker.
finally got the VGA adapter for my other monitor now i can look at twice the porn one screen for each eye,lol... i also been eating more and have my old weightbench set up so now i lift everynight, guess all the new photoopps are makin me a bit more time at the body and chect and stomach etc... its been about 3 weeks and the results are already poppin out... damn u Lager,lol.
last night went to electro-current hung out with octavio, rachel her boi and mr Robert Drake... also went to the starfuckers premiere... it waz just me dancing but thats perfect, dj pussygalore waz rockin the 80's remixes it was takin me back. lets see... oh my phone turned off... i decided to wait a bit before turning it back on... the silence is actually making my myspace explode... another addiction i have ceased to jerk off... i visit it now every few days actually more interested in the music pages talkin to groups about how they produce the soundz... most are very open about it its awesome.. noit used to it and its gettin me fuckin pysched to buy the ION, watchin 6 in ebay and i'm still waitin on the right price for the sucker,lol... can't wait. also been makin beats to rehearse to... don't think i'm much of a beat man... but all i really need is a groove to lyric too... actually this way i can write more on the spot... i didn't really have the space for this before... i'm luvin this house, n the yard and stars at night... maybe thats really what i needed... i'm such a dork but i luv sittin outback watchin the stars... suck it up now before i live in the Smog,lol.
well enough of me catchin this thing up... i miised alot , but hopefuly now i can write smaller entries that won't kill ya.
THOSE WHO WANNA SEE ME BEFORE I GO U HAVE MY INFO, oh and I think i'm havin a pre-drink fashionathon for this medical fetish night at shock... email me or ACE, and we will raid the closet.
muchluv
perish
e
so i gave it time... figured a few days i would get a call from my "best friends" on the "hey bro hope u made out ok... whats your new addy, lets catch up..." then it was a week then a month... soon i realized what i had wasn't all what it seemed and that people find new people i guess. Though the move is good for me... i have come to the conclusion that philly is telling me something... i guess i'm oldfashioned to think that best friends want more then a ear to brag to about what they been doing... maybe next time they may ask how i've been, and or ask me to hang out for once; friend said again, well people are udsed to you promoting a good time.. they arent used to bein the one including you... perhaps they are right... lately i've been out of the promotional personality and really just want more of reality.
So now i spend alot of time finishing my new website, clients are rollin in now (guess i knoew finishing it would bring work)... figures now that i'm heading back out west ( i can't take the work here,lol)... but i already decided. my last project has paid for my last 4 months of partying and mental rehabiliation... got another check comin in for the new adventure...stay tuned. IN LA i have more plans then i have days... my boi Lithium and his gurl Venus are settin my ass up... i have a few photogigs with some major photographers updated my OMP.... i have work lined up as well, i have promotion opps downtown and may get into designing more special events for the entertainment industry... tradeshows are fun, but i wanna make the money i do in architecture designing environments i can actually have fun in myself... image dancing in a club u designed (fuck yeah) and may even slide into a night gig too... and even Halloween adventure wants me to run the LA store,lol... fuck it,lol , I can't say how much i have been focused lately...all i know is that i got done in 2 weeks what i didn't do in 2 years of clubbing and such... don't get me wrong... i had a blast, i usually get distracted with everyone elses smiles... i guess i realized that not many people even know what i do for a living, or what i do outside of the club... and i realized how much people see u and just assume what you are... i would settle for five minutes of someone who wants to get inside my head rather then a 2 year party full of faces that think i'm "goth or a chain drinker", i mean common don't judge a man by his dress,lol... reality is my associations are dropping like flys and i really don't care, those who are interested have been there for years... and i'm confident where ever i go... they will remain true to me. Ran away there, but i havent writen in a while so i'm playin catch up...on another note i almost left out the music news, i have a frontman audition commin up for a industrial band forming in westphilly... and another in LA when i get out though that ones more glamish (haha.. time for some big hair,lol)... depending onthe click i think both will help me tremendously with my own voice not to mention help me get a feel for the area music scene. hmmm, what else... lots of road trips lately suckin up the sun i guess, or maybe just enjoyin the car my last sterling was in SF and thier was to many hills to truly open up the throttle... here i guess i'm pushin my luck... this thing fly's last weekend the wheels actually came off the ground,lol talk about a light car... pia was holdin the top down it waz awesome... got back to the city and cruised south street for oldtimes sake... i have to say all the bike cops followed us all the way to WAWA... only to ask what kind of car it waz... one even asked jokingly... does this thing pass inspection... i nearly died as they laughed and the one cop said to pia... that car is a free ticket as he walked away... so i will be down town more... since the other cop we ran into later that night happens to be my new neihbor... i don't feel scared about the inspection sticker.
finally got the VGA adapter for my other monitor now i can look at twice the porn one screen for each eye,lol... i also been eating more and have my old weightbench set up so now i lift everynight, guess all the new photoopps are makin me a bit more time at the body and chect and stomach etc... its been about 3 weeks and the results are already poppin out... damn u Lager,lol.
last night went to electro-current hung out with octavio, rachel her boi and mr Robert Drake... also went to the starfuckers premiere... it waz just me dancing but thats perfect, dj pussygalore waz rockin the 80's remixes it was takin me back. lets see... oh my phone turned off... i decided to wait a bit before turning it back on... the silence is actually making my myspace explode... another addiction i have ceased to jerk off... i visit it now every few days actually more interested in the music pages talkin to groups about how they produce the soundz... most are very open about it its awesome.. noit used to it and its gettin me fuckin pysched to buy the ION, watchin 6 in ebay and i'm still waitin on the right price for the sucker,lol... can't wait. also been makin beats to rehearse to... don't think i'm much of a beat man... but all i really need is a groove to lyric too... actually this way i can write more on the spot... i didn't really have the space for this before... i'm luvin this house, n the yard and stars at night... maybe thats really what i needed... i'm such a dork but i luv sittin outback watchin the stars... suck it up now before i live in the Smog,lol.
well enough of me catchin this thing up... i miised alot , but hopefuly now i can write smaller entries that won't kill ya.
THOSE WHO WANNA SEE ME BEFORE I GO U HAVE MY INFO, oh and I think i'm havin a pre-drink fashionathon for this medical fetish night at shock... email me or ACE, and we will raid the closet.
muchluv
perish
e