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"I dont wanna go to a 4 year college, thats not me at ALL. Not at all. Ive been stuck in this shitless state my whole life, I wanna go somewhere, I want to leave, and never come back here for years. Im not coming home every sunday for a meal, or every christmas for a christmas tree and presents. I wanna wear the same god damn pants 2 days in a row, a bandana on my head, and I want to see other towns, other cultures, other lifestyles, rather then the stuck up bitch town I live in. I hate this house, I hate this routine life. I want to wake up and say, "Hmmm where can i drive today" I wanna sleep in till noon, or wake up early to watch the sunrise. I want to canoe, camp, explore, offroad, shop in a small town, wear a sunhat with god damn ripped jeans and a YMCA camp shirt. I just dont want to flippin' care. I want to meet new people, and hate new people. This sheltered little town makes so many acusations about the outside world, when 3/4th of them havent even left it for more then a week. AND MEXICO DOESNT COUNT. Fuck I dont want to have a full time job, I dont want to pay taxes or owe the government anything, I dont want car loans, morgage payments, I dont want daycare payments, I want the nomadic life! I WANT TO RUN AWAY."
thats why we gotta get out of here. some people wanna lead successful college lives and grow up to be grey and smart, others want to do this. Like me.
Now it's my turn.
I wanna wake up and be able to eat my own fucking breakfast, left over pizza from 2 days ago because i forgot about it the day before. I wanna get in whatever the fuck vehicle I have, pack up my bags and leave until I run out of ideas, when I run out of ideas, I come back to MY house, to MY apartment, whatever the fuck it is and chill. I want to write stories, have a journal of the places I go. I want a fucking laptop and sit and write whatever comes out of my head. I want people to read my ideas, causing a huge discussion at meetings of unimportant people. People that are looked over by the big people but have words that could change how the world turn - Thats something I want to be, too. I'm going to go to places like Arizona and camp out in the desert, New York and hang out in the subways. I want my life to be suburban one day, then hoboish the next. Fuck, I wear pants two days in a row. It isnt all that great. you know why its not all that great? because people tell me not to do it. My life revolves around what others tell me what to do and what not to do because I'm a minor. Fuck being a minor, I'm a person. My mom said yesterday that people dont look at her as a person, only a mother of children. I told her I don't, I look at her as a friend too. She thanked me. - But she still looks at me as merely a son. And I'm sick of being looked at as a family title when I'm so much more, everybody is so much more because they have more to them than a fucking title. That's why I'm getting out of here once I turn 18- an adult. My title won't matter on the roads. I'll be that guy with that girl trying to get away from it all.
And when people ask me my name, I'll tell them it doesn't matter what my name is. Because it's a title.
thats why we gotta get out of here. some people wanna lead successful college lives and grow up to be grey and smart, others want to do this. Like me.
Now it's my turn.
I wanna wake up and be able to eat my own fucking breakfast, left over pizza from 2 days ago because i forgot about it the day before. I wanna get in whatever the fuck vehicle I have, pack up my bags and leave until I run out of ideas, when I run out of ideas, I come back to MY house, to MY apartment, whatever the fuck it is and chill. I want to write stories, have a journal of the places I go. I want a fucking laptop and sit and write whatever comes out of my head. I want people to read my ideas, causing a huge discussion at meetings of unimportant people. People that are looked over by the big people but have words that could change how the world turn - Thats something I want to be, too. I'm going to go to places like Arizona and camp out in the desert, New York and hang out in the subways. I want my life to be suburban one day, then hoboish the next. Fuck, I wear pants two days in a row. It isnt all that great. you know why its not all that great? because people tell me not to do it. My life revolves around what others tell me what to do and what not to do because I'm a minor. Fuck being a minor, I'm a person. My mom said yesterday that people dont look at her as a person, only a mother of children. I told her I don't, I look at her as a friend too. She thanked me. - But she still looks at me as merely a son. And I'm sick of being looked at as a family title when I'm so much more, everybody is so much more because they have more to them than a fucking title. That's why I'm getting out of here once I turn 18- an adult. My title won't matter on the roads. I'll be that guy with that girl trying to get away from it all.
And when people ask me my name, I'll tell them it doesn't matter what my name is. Because it's a title.